there's no point in lying about anything, just gotta write your stuff, say it, paint it, record it, sing it, say it, live it, be it, do it. everything else is inauthentic and deviance from it makes ya miserable. most things make me inauthentic, living in constructed reality seems to just wear you out, it's a ridiculous inadequate way to live a life, spending 4 hours on hold, 3 hours dealing with kula lumpa call centre's and the zombie's that work in them. there were some nice folks at the jetstar engineering dept who assisted me, but generally the experience was trying, with miss cupcake like a force of nature up against the hordes of mindless idiots in customer service, we quickly reached the conclusion that the customer service strategy jetstar use is bulling and the indiscriminate charging extras for relatively simple requests, ie changing name on ticket. this process took a considerable amount of energy from cupcake who is in no state to be getting stressed.
at one point it started to get very monty python as we were both on the phone, i found myself getting really angry with the whole process and i think i started to slip into some bizarre basil fawlty hybrid of sarcasm hysteria. i dunno, it was very frustrating. this is what i loathe, the whole fucking stupid system where everyone is unconsciously working for the evil empire. wake up suckers! time is now.