i dream about you now, you are happy and content, your mind is still and calm and you have no desire for drinking left. you shine with beauty, radiate joy and confidence in your ability. it's a wonderful thing for me to see, a really wonderful thing to share. we do a lot of things together, almost everything but we will always have our own space, i will always insist on feeling safe and having a place where i can retreat to. this insecurity is 10 years old, more now but it is real for me, a fear i need to adapt to not suppress. i know something terrible happened with us once, something really bad that made me incredibly sad and detached from everything, a minor trauma in my life i guess but one that i seem to revisit occasionally when i am with you and you talk about drinking. it's something i will never do, my hates are, pharmaceuticals, alcohol, sports, meat industry and the slaves who support them.
you are unrecognisable in your new persona, the old one has been banished and the new one is supreme. you did this i say, your true nature. our imagination over will under love.