the science of today is computer modelling, not really a science at all. put a bunch of numbers into a program and get a result. science when applied to human life can only be verified by applying it to human life which is why trails for vaccines take a decade at least. i know enough about the thailidomide scandal not to think science in medicine has beneficial effects. the company that produced it marketed aggressively exploiting the safety and effectiveness on morning sickness yet it had never been tested on pregnant women. ten thousand children were born with radical deformities due to this safe medication. during the trail afterwards no guilty verdict was given. thus is the reach of the pharemcutical industries. pfizer a different company has a long history of legal issues, silent payouts for drugs they push and aggressively market to govts. around the world in long complex contracts that not only allow for no accountability but also allow for the drug company to seize assets from the countries if they fail to follow through. this is becuase one of the owners of pfizer is black rock, a financial investment company which basically funds warfare. it has a complex web of arms manufacturing, private security and pharmaceuticals companies that all work together and recently were given status 'to big to fail' just like the banks in the financial crisis.  yeah, stick that in a computer model.  

i read that there is an article today in the guardian that bastion of 'fair and balanced' reporting that most trendy australians think carry some credibility and most english people gave up on years ago when they realised it was an upmarket version of green left weekly but sadistically printed daily. it said social media posts had been put into an artificial intelligence simulated program and found conspiracy theory's about vaccines are connected to folklore and witchcraft. obviously denigrating folklore and witchcraft as being some thing only primitive tribal people incorporate into their culture.  whereas the sophisticated modern westerner should embrace science, authority and the rigorous handover of individual sovereignty to the state. all aligned with the principles of the guardian.
however what the guardian fails to comprehend is the most effective medicines are based on folklore and witchcraft is just a variation on physics. vaccine skeptics are as varied in their beliefs and not all think the same. unlike the guardian readership. we have very different reasons for being skeptic and these cannot be fed into a computer and understood because it confirms with your confirmation biases. ie. valium comes from valerian. in valium there is no valerian as it's synthesised. valerian grows free valium costs. 
why people seem skeptical is not even about conspiracy, it's about fact. sure people layer the fact with whatever conspiracy they want but the basic facts speak for themselves.
all science requires rigorous debate, all perspectives must be understood and agreed upon yet any debate about this vaccine was shut down and scientists and general practitioners were told they could be struck off for saying anything about these vaccines that was negative. my gp told me this after one hour discussion. even on the exemption form there is no exemptions. it just says if you had a bad reaction the first, if you have anaphylactic shock the second can be administered in hospital. there's no religious exception either, everyone must get vaxed. 
this vexes me. if you have immunity why do you need a vax?
the other facts that speak are why do these drug companies have indemnities? if the product is so cool why can't it be certain of its own safety. and as far as bill gates goes, he has been pushing vaccines on people for years, yet his background is computers. he has invested everything in vaccines along with illumanaries such as weapons and defence contractors black rock. 
dot's. join em, you get a picture. a picture may not represent truth but the guardian is just a picture as well, conspiring against conspiracies is still conspiracy. 
here's a simple question.
what exactly is inside the vaccine?
also why is sweden reached herd immunity without the totalitarian govt. influence. 
riddle me this people. and maybe i'll understand why i should trust the ridiculously  powerful who seem so enthusiastic removing the only control i really have, that over my own body. 

i read unfaithful music disappearing ink, by elvis costello, it's impressive and i enjoyed some of his stories, particularly contemporary ones. reading about his childhood was i guess obligatory in any autobiography but the scene he describes was slightly before my time in the north of england so it all appeared a little alien to a londoner like me, however elvis is a good writer and the book is one of the better autobiographies a rock star has written. 

i also started reading up above the city, down below the stars by barry adamson which is excellent, a really autobiography where he exposes his dark side and writes beautifully. 

what shines through both books is music, and how from a very young age both these individuals heard the music. barry also saw the film, he's a really good soundtrack man as well as a bad seed. 

walking, sitting reading, getting the body in order after near death always takes a process of re integration, it's like humpty dumpty, now way will he be the same kinda egg as he was before the fall. so, the big challenge for me is to remember to take the meds. the doctor said if i don't i will die, so the stakes are high. i usually take the evening ones at 5pm but a few times i forget and end up taking them at 12 midnight. that throws my morning meds out as i take them at 7am so therein lies the problem. 
as far as reassembly of the egg, i'm probably a little scrambled and need a few months to get my mojo working again.