there are a few songs i cannot listen to.
one is wilcos, how to fight loneliness. you played that cd to me about 10 years ago and i singled that song out as being perfect, i played it non stop, it was the saddest song i'd heard and it had the most wonderful piano. i have always loved that piano sound, melancholy haunting and so terribly sad.i played it over and over to you almost obsessively.
i couldn't listen to that song ever after, i still can't, and you played it to me in a car a few days ago and i almost broke, something that fractured a long time ago seemed to just crack open.
i don't know why you played that song?
i'm glad we were in a car and there was a lot of distractions, i'm glad we didn't have to face one another, i'm glad i had my sunglasses to hide behind.
10 years filling my heart with smoke, that's exactly how i dealt with it. with us. with you. i was deeply in love with you. it was real for me.



How To Fight Loneliness :
by
wilco

How to fight loneliness?
Smile all the time

Shine you teeth 'til meaningless
And sharpen them with lies

And whatever's going down
Will follow you around
That's how you fight loneliness

You laugh at every joke

Drag your blanket blindly
And fill your heart with smoke

And the first thing that you want
Will be the last thing you ever need
That's how you fight it

Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time
Just smile all the time