see i started my working life trying to help people, i did it as a social worker, therapist, youth worker, sex offender treatment centre manager, drug and alcohol worker, and i tell you now those are very ineffective areas. well they may have changed now but when i was working in these systems they were not that good as far as end point goes, it was a numbers game, movement through a system, occasionally you get lucky, you make a difference and that keeps you moving forwards but you also have to deal with managers and bureaucracies and somewhere down the track you uncover something evil and fucking depraved. here's where you just wanna quit or understand it, see through the surface. i been out with some very difficult women, mostly under the influence of pills or vodka, they not me. both evil in my book. oh i been there, i done em despite my instinctive aversion to them. my folks drink, always have, man i used to think that was cool but it's not, it's dumb.. it would be cool if they had smoked weed, or taken plant medicines. they are a different spirit. the plants love us and want us to evolve, the pills and booze spirit wants to enslave. it don't care about the people you love or that they love you, it has one over whelming need, like smack, more substance. i seen the bottle and the damage done. i seen the needle and the damage done and believe me these are nasty spirits.
these spirits infect women in such a terrible way, i seen the sweetest most beautiful girls just turn ugly and sick, if your finely attuned you get to see the energy that has inhabited them, it's not that difficult, the mask hangs over their face and the behaviour changes to the most ugly and cliqued type of hostility, the poor woman has no idea what's going on, she has been abducted. however it is a choice, everyone gets at least that. it's easy to say no, it's easy to surround yourself with lpve rather than people who are also infected to the point the parasites all reenforce one another until they start fighting one another, something that never happens in the natural plant medicine world. to the bystander or the observer it's just really boring and unimaginative.
how can you fight them, especially if the traditional techniques fail. the answer is white magick. i see the polarity now, black white. mmm, okay i have been some what askew, this is what i understand to be the landscape between dimensions, see the duality is really a singularity, that is duality is this dimension yet it exists within dimension that is a singularity, that must be god. duality operates on the ying yang therefore black white, taking black to represent the destructive white to be creative. however from the singularity it's the same colour a grey, therefore any magick i do in this dimension must be white as a choice i or my will makes.
therefore i guess with my boddisatvah vows i should just accept i now am a white magickian, which is ironic really as i am almost black. mmm, the universe is female and therefore filled with irony.
anyway's it's all energy work, turning fear into love, shifting the flow, the balance between the multiverse, it's rebel physics man, but always imagination under love over will.