we have been jaded and battered, like old conscripted soldiers, on the battlefield against forces of darkness, impossible systems, babel like structures that reach for the sky in hubris, we carry the weight of several lifetimes, we know this one is testing us, we know life is a veil of tears, we know that there's some thing behind it, we know that there is intelligence to the chaos but the clusterfuck has hit us hard. it's not playing by the rules we play by, it's a malevolent thing, an insidious energy, but there are ways to fight it without fighting.
we have no choice, it's out to destroy us, make us lesser than we are, make us loose our integrity, make us become like the enemy. the only way forwards is to use magick and love, imagination under love over magick.
the morning comes, we walk along the town, shops open, people drink lattes, the sky looks clear, the ocean is majestic, waves are monstrous, we watch the dolphins, we watch a surfer ride in, it's an amazing ride, his board weaves along generating speed and velocity, it's one man on a small board in the most petrifying force, a mass of churning water, sustaining life amazing.
we wander back, we have some tea and do some tricks with technology. i have the most amazing music in my iphone, i really can't believe it, i really can't. it is indeed the best friday 13th. thank you. it's a big deal for me, that music is like blood and oxygen.
later i meet my clusterfuck for lunch, she's awesome, just beautiful, i just want to dive into her and sleep for the next 20 years but it's never that simple with clusterfucks.
we eat a spinach pie, she goes shopping, she buys beautiful things, and looks like she belongs within the glamourous world, i'd so love to just take her away to somewhere simple, where there are no shopping, no magazines, no gossip, no society, so it would be just me and you sister and the ultimate confrontation, you would have to meet yourself naked. no drugs, no drinks, nothing but the good stuff, love, healing and some one that loves you because you are intoxicating when your not intoxicated.