old captain mission, strange enigmatic figure that wanders the space time continuum like an angel or demon looking for the key to unlock his expanding heart from it's jail, watery eyes, lips that burn, his strange oriental beard and defeated aura has experienced an epiphany last night, ooh don't take to many of those i hear you say, they are really bad for your kidneys. yes yes.
i have to move forwards now, zero in on finishing snuff, get some recording done while i can, the future is uncertain, there's no time for fluffing around, pretending i'm here for much longer, the countdown has already started, my cosmic vision sees it clearly, i'm already overdue but plant gods say no captain mission, you must stay and finish what you started.
my friend who had a breakdown is looking to me for guidance as she charts her spiritual growth, i don't like this authority, i tell her that she must become her own guide.
i am only my own master, yes captain mission can traverse the multi dimensional pathways but can he remember miss cupcakes birthday, nope, he is the original dr. when, picking up sexy assistants along the way, some stick around a while but mostly they can't cope with his jupiter and neptune like nature. only his dog knows him. he loved all his assistants, very much, some more than others, he loved marnie, miss cup cake and meredith most but marnie left him for another man, meredith went nuts and miss cup cake turned to stone on another world when we fought the evil warped and twisted beast known as zoe.
he remembers miss cup cake and him were very close, he loved her more than anything, he wanted to keep her as an assistant but something happened and he ended up hating her he is ashamed to say. but hate is a weird thing.
when he was with the assistant meredith she once told him, 'hate is just love' and she was correct. i learnt this now. i never really understood it due to a romantic glitch that's been deleted due to a healthy dose of cynicism and regret. i am full of regrets, how could you not be?

onwards, i'm back in the studio on monday, recording with val.i don't know what to record, a snuff song or my 'vermont girl with salad dressing', which i really like at the moment as it has a positive feel about it and nice guitars and radio friendly vibe.