madness. not really although many would whisper in my ear those words like you want to, but all i have is just a wider framework to look at the dimensional aspects of the universe and the way she presents herself to us. with a philosophical inquiring mind i rather explore this than watch master chefs on tv, it's not really a passing phaze, not a hobby, not a mental condition, it's been with me since i was a childe, it runs in my family, i come from high priest linage all the way back to solomon's first temple, so i am unravelling my code, hacking my own genetic imprints and now i hack the universe. actually one should never hack the universe although magick is a good mechanical technology it's better to engage and play, flirt and proposition, hacking involves an inherent danger and for many leads to self destruction. me, i don't want self destruction. everything is a choice, we do create our own realities, we do get what we wish for, which is why one should be very considerate when asking for something.
the key here is gratitude.
i am grateful and indebted to certain people and spirits that have assisted me on my path.
i remember what eckhart said, 'the only thing that burns in hell is the part of you that won't let go of your life; your memories, your attachments. they burn 'em all away. but they're not punishing you, he said. they're freeing your soul. ... if you're frightened of dying and holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. but if you've made your peace then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth.'
it's time to be free