louise
you were a seething contradiction paradox, you drove me of the road, you were the femme fatales femme fatale. we explored everything, nothing was left after that. you and i were unable to sustain any thing good except sex. but sex is not all there is in life. we did have a love in the beginning but it was created on a powerful bed of karmic energies, we never really stood a chance but we were extremists and the darker it became the more we dived deep, until there was no oxygen for either of us. there was nothing left to hurt. emptiness and a wake of peoples lives destroyed. it was not a good scene louise, i'm a different animal.
you told me your truth once, i always said there was something in your core that started your destructive tendencies, then after a few years you told me.
i wish you had told me earlier when i could off helped heal, instead i just made it worse.
forgiveness louise, forgive yourself first. it was not your fault.
you give your life in service. you have the fire and the commitment. these are what seemed to drive you forwards but it was never just that. i release you from your torment. you have permission.