so life is short, fleeting, it takes ya places you never really think it can. my friend said to me the other day, we was out at midnight, we was by the beach, i was on a big rock and he was standing in front of me. he says god played a trick on us, he says the only way man can understand the infinite is by being in this. life. the body. the finite. being alive.
he's right, god did play a trick on us. he plays tricks on me all the time, my life filled with irony, i'm in love with an impossible girl, a ten year old relationship and desire returned from the grave, love turns to hate turns to love again. some words i wrote turn around to play a trick upon me, wish fulfilment for us both. a vision i had 10 years ago, a future i couldn't change occurs but not quite how i saw it, you and i locked in a karmic dance, can't you see it, you and i, twisting around the inevitable, your salvation in front, mine behind. how close are we, orbiting one another. you can't tell me that means nothing.
i recorded a song a while back, i wrote it with margo smith in mind, her voice and mine, it's called 'occult diary' but i wish you could sing, i'd get you to sing this with me cos when i read the words they are very clearly written about us. me and you. it's transcendental and opaque, not obvious but yes this is the song that wrote itself for us. it's a gift to have these things realised and on friday i think i'll record it in the studio and i'll dedicate it to you.
i can't even begin to explain how grateful i am that you came into my life again when you did, despite the circumstances. i know how hard that hit you, i know how you must have struggled with it, but i know that you will be okay, i'll be there if you should ever need me. you know that.
life is so fleeting, it's suffering just like buddha said and happiness is not something that just comes, you gotta work at it, i work fucking hard to be happy, but it's possible, you just need application, and some good people around you. all spiritual books speak of this, the only battle worth fighting is the one within, the only person you can change is yourself, it's known in some circles as the great work. that's pretty much what i been doing.
and here i am typing stuff in to my computer when on face book one of my long distance friends starts writing how she's going to commit suicide. it's truly bizarre as there are three off us all writing in her wall to take some time and consider the options available, we are all taking slightly different approaches. she tells us she is prostituting her body and i say we all are one way or the other, it ain't about the body, it's about the soul. she asks me how to be happy, and i repeat what i write above. it's incredible how this is happening, the 2012 shift has us in it's wake, it's undeniable.
and i am one of many avatars, so who ever you are if your reading this, tune in to the shift. it ain't no fairy tale.
my mission is to attune as many people as possible to assist them prepare, my friends, the people i love, those that don't believe in the mayan cosmic cycles, just open the heart a little, let the magick in. everything is coming together, resistance is futile. 8 division sky place.