my world is becoming better, personal life seems in order, there's just enough chaos for me to play with, challenges are more financial than anything else at the moment, it's going to be a lean period. gotta bunker down, against the storm, it's only money, can't fucking take it with you, can't buy you any happiness that means anything, it's a strange thing when you do the maths, i'm not a good mathematician but this stuff i get easy, i process fast these days and my interests are not that enmeshed with the material realms of maya. although i'd love to have some sort of break from bills and the fucking fines i have accumulating.
xmas looms up, it's not a day i enjoy, i think im gonna hide away and hang with my dog lest i just feel lost. and i am somewhat lost on that one day each year now jake has gone although most of the time i actually feel found. i don't like the xmas thing, i hate new years and i find all sorts of celebration around these events disappointing and transient. i'm no grouch or grinch but really people look at what your doing, how your behaving, look at the relentless pursuit of consuming as you are consumed by the void. we chop trees, stuff ourselves, soak up the poison alcohol, remove ourselves from the holy, ignore the real need, drown out the real plead, numb to truth, deaf to the cry, blind to the sight.
bring back the pagan at least it was authentic.
anyway let's leave that alone, focus on what really is important...

miss cupcake - well i think we did it. you are magnificent, a brave and gracious spirit is born twice. i love you.
nico - wow! the world is our oyster, or some sort of sexy food stuff.
agent stone - ha, well sister i love you to, your a good friend.
trina - i love you where the hell are you. all i want is your xmas presence.
leanne - i'm on your side sister, we can move evan over to the good side of the force, he's almost there :)
wendy the witch - thank you for the work, i felt much lighter after you.
hp- oh i love ya to sister, you know that.
gravey, evan, steve, val, loius, nev - the only men i love, (in the brotherly way people!!!!). i'm very grateful you are in my life guys.
sue and simon - such great friends, thank you so much, i would be lost without your continual support and encouragement.
the church - what can i say. i hear your magick, it seduced me a long time ago and i'm very grateful.
my enemies - i love you to, suckers!
the great dog pan - what a privilege to be your student.
the great spirit - everyday you blow my mind, and it's beautiful.
and that's about it. not a long list but a real one. my people.