what a nightmare, the clusterfuck hits hard, it has changed strategies and entwined itself around everything that comes at me, it's unrelenting and getting me down. i have to dismiss it, put it away, it's to hard to deal with, it's a head trip that just fucks me, it's to big, overwhelming me, sending me into madness.
i just want someone to wrap their arms around me and to kiss me and tell me i'm okay. i want to fall asleep in their arms and wake up in the morning sun, that's all i want, some release from this.