gratitude to my friend nico who insisted i see a doctor and offered to come to the medical centre with me, knowing my fear of such establishments and general impotency once behind the doors of the medical model, however dr. green whom is a very nice old eccentric lady said i had whooping cough and gave me some strong antibiotics, so here i am with a week off work. at least i now know what ails me, the relentless coughing got so bad i was coughing up shit loads of blood last night, which kinda motivated me somewhat. i wonder if one day the medical model will invent a condition and a pharmaceutical to treat people who are adverse to the medical model and pharmaceuticals. it's only a matter of time.