sensitivity equates to feeling. one can't be sensitive in the mind, it's a complete heart space. i've always figured power came from the mental aspects of magick but this is now proven incorrect and the most powerful magick i know is love magick. it took me by surprise, but it was at its peak when i felt loved and was loving. this generated huge forces until i stopped feeling loved, and then it crashed.
i figured the crash was space for me to have respite, but also operate on a more physical plane which i called 'grace' however during the separation part 'love' seemed to disappear and i diminished.
extreme emotional states are like batteries, therefore the massive feelings of depletion and energy. polarity girl affects these shifts in our feedback loops. and i affect her. the answer has to be in harmony. working with the emotional aspects not anything else and i have been very untethered from any sense of control over my own these past months, in fact they are wild and what happens is i get to a low point and then suddenly find resources to lift me out. thus growing and building a stronger version of myself. resilience i guess but it would be unnecessary if i just felt it.
however, now the magickian is back, a newer version as it's no longer separated from the other aspects.
the other aspect that now needs the work is the most complex for that element requires one thing that i never ever saw coming and it's far to intense a dynamic to fuck with lightly. this needs a lot of consideration.