'fuck you'
i went to bed with one woman and wake up with another.
this pattern continues and it becomes predictable but nonetheless disappointing every time it manifests itself. however, i am immune now to the war paint mask and the powerful persona that seems to put everything else before love. i don't like her much but she's obviously the persona that controls your heart, and i think she needs to meet an aspect of myself to understand herself, it is interesting and strange, our counterparts are on a collision course.
the woman in the evening and night was clearly feminine and receptive, the one in the morning masculine. there's no value attached to these, there was no weakness or vulnerability, only great beauty, both personas have roles but they are far from integrated.
the male aspect hides behind war paint. the female needs none.
this is where you're healing... 
...mine continues. i do my work with diligence and conviction. i will change within. 
every day in every way i get better and better. every minite and every second and every moment i am better than the one preceding it.