disappointment, sadness and i dunno, hurt maybe. your friend, the one you been helping for months, you been there when she's been bawling her eyes out, you been there when she's frightened and scared about her pregnancy, you always were there, driving to her home, making sure she's eating right, sleeping right, the person you just want to see healthy and happy, no agendas, no fucking agenda, yet she constantly takes from you, constantly criticises and attacks your personality. you hear her speak her garbled fragmented truth and it sickens you.