Sunday, June 20, 2010

the first thing people see about me is my dark skin, i used to be considered black in australia, when i was the only dark guy on the street, people used to say i was black. in london no one ever thought i was black, black friends knew i was not black, in fact when i lived in canada i lost all my pigmentation and was quite pale, same in berlin, on my travels i was never considered black, but here in australia 22 years ago i was a black man. imagine this reality being imposed upon you when you have never really had it before, it was strange because i never really was hung up on peoples colours or stuff but over the years it began to irritate me that people fixate on this point about me. then when i had dreads it became even worse, everyone thought i was a musician from jamaica. at the time i was running a brokerage program for people with disabilities, the first of it's kind in australia. anyways eventually i just accepted the idea of being black. simultaneously to this is the fact i am jewish, which is strange because i never really thought of myself as jewish because despite being brought up in a jewish family as soon as i left home i never considered myself religious. however just as people create a reality about me being black they do about me being jewish. mostly it's negative.
mostly people accept i can be black, i mean that stares them in the face i guess but being jewish is like being a fucking leper. it's not something i advertise but not something i deny. most people have already relayed their anti semitic comments towards me before they know, it happens all the time. sometimes even with people that i have known for a long time, they will start harping on about jewish people or israel or some weird conspiracy theory about giant lizards and jews.'your not like that.' they add, hoping that their words somehow are diminished by this frame.
i usually mention how it is not the first time jews were compared to animals, the last person managed to convince the whole german public that the jews were rats (quite literally) and needed to be exterminated. he managed to kill 6 million but unfortunately some got away only to hear a new theory that jews are actually giant lizards 60 years later.
being somewhat older and wiser i usually start behaving like a lizard when i hear this, eye's bulge, tongue flicks out, i move slow and tilt my head, sometimes i lay on a sun soaked rock but mostly i tell the exponents of these ideas that they are possibly bigoted morons who need a good dose of lithium or electro shock treatment.
most of the people that talk about these subjects are well educated middle class folks who generally also hate capitalism and yet some how manage to drive around in bmws and drink expensive wines and live in quite large homes.
i guess what i'm saying here is my identity when it's stripped down in front of people by their judgements and classifications is i am a black jew. if i was gay i'd get the trifecta and possibly a grant from the government.
the only truly multi cultural place i have seen where it works is israel. because at the end of the day, it's never about skin but ideology, the countries of the future will be defined by their ideology, islam already has most of the middle east and eurabia, the capitalists have north and middle america and the socialists have the south america and bits of europe, the dictators have north korea. eventually islam will destroy israel because the one thing israel has that islam cannot tolerate is diversity.
so i am publicly black, that's difficult to keep private, i'm selectively jewish (i chose who i share that with) and i am a magus, a magickian. (i very rarely share this with anyone) these are the facts. this is the truth. black jew magus (not in any particular order)

so know what, who your dealing with and everything will be cool.
these are my thoughts for the day.

i'm a fucking black jew magus and i'm proud.

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