disappointing day, all my plans came undone, although the huge moon at the end of tomorrow made it worthwhile, i took a ride on a piscean space craft with the praying mantis from venus, we slipped into overdrive down on the beach, cavorting and frolicking like chimpanzees on lsd throwing bananas at one another, however it's very cold outside and eventually i have to retire to the warmth of mission control cranking heaters, burning candles, we languish in hot baths and oils, the sweet scent of an opiate based side effect.
i wake up outside, on the balcony, sun rise pierced my heart and something rumbles deep within, i have a hunger that needs, it's a overwhelming need, it drives my body, my thoughts, i can feel the need in every blood cell, white, red and blue all pulse with need, which should not be confused with desire, i wander through the rooms, find a photograph of myself with dreadlocks, i looked happy.
lightning flash of realization, i see how we all have this need, the one we can never feed, the one we cannot attain, the need to return to the past.
heartfilled with regret i wander out into the sun where i melt to dust.
even love couldn't save me now.