Wednesday, March 24, 2010

what do i know, fuck man, i don't really know much at all, the sky is blue, the sea is wet, it's beautiful and so are you, it kinda starts getting blurry after that. everything is just a wild guess, some strange intuitive feeling, the small questions don't really figure into the equation.
what should i wear?
red or green?
up or down?
margarine or butter?
work or play?
eat or drink?
i never really got to hung up on the details, i was always a big picture guy, you either do or you don't. some people can't stop thinking about the details, some people get stuck in details, who the fuck cares about details when the whole freaking concept of life is at question, come on, don't you wanna know what it is all about, don't you want the answer, don't you have to know if god exists, if there is life on other planets, if the human experience has a future, come on. compared to 'what will i wear' these questions demand interest. steve kilbey told me a fantastic story once, a brilliant story about julian cope. when julian first met steve he came running up and said, 'steve steve', grabbing steves collar he says, 'what's it mean?'
steve in his cool way says, 'what does what mean julien?'
to which julian replies, 'everything.'
everything. i want the answer and i am not gonna settle for anything less than the truth. i have demanded the truth in this lifetime, in my past lives i found some answers but not the answer and this lifetime i found the answer.
love baby, it's LOVE.
what the fuck else is there that matters.
ultimately everything reduces down to two essential energetic states, fear and love. what else can you do with life but reach a state of love and transmute fear. this has always been my mission. sometimes i just forget. sometimes i need reminding. the problem is my love is not the same as the conventional concept. i see love as a very strong force, warrior force, you can kill with it. love fucking starts wars baby, read your greek history, love builds monuments like the taj mahal, love fucking pulls the water across the earth in tides, you think the moons gravitational pull does it but it's really love, the same love that scientists discover cures with the same love that pulls people across lifetimes till they find the person they love, everything comes down to fear and love.
LOVE

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