some empty little town on the north shore, a corner outside a library, i see her first and she pretends not to see me. she's smoking and looks ahead trying to be cool and indifferent but instead looks self conscious and nervous.
'hello you,' i say as i pass her.

'oh hi.'

i walk past her, not looking back.

it's not like there was any love there, just sex. it's not like we parted friends, in fact if i recall correctly she ended up stealing from me. money, an opel card and books. 

she was a petulant brat actually. 

i remember her body and smile.

later i get a text from another ex, she says 'we should meet?'

'we did,' i reply.

well it's the mercury retrograde and pisces is in jupiter, the stars conspire against me. 

it will pass.

over the last few weeks i have been assisting a scientist conduct an experiment with a ouji board.  we met a few weeks ago and got along quite well, his obvious interest in occult and parapsychology was science based so we shared a few stories and background experiences.  

he rented a studio where he unveiled the board, brand new and set it up under camera and lights, he wore a blindfold, i was there to make sure it was all kosher and to open the ceremony. 

we did this for a period of three weeks.

the results were inconclusive but there were some very strange events that occurred.  his body began to shake, we got some spelling but as the sessions were timed never enough to complete anything meaningful. he reported a few peculiar sensations. 

anyway, that's what i have been up to.

let's talk about kayne west. he's been popping up a bit as he posted something on 'tweeter' about wanting to go 'defcon on jews' some sort of military term. admittedly it's a stupid thing to put out there in the universe but he would not be alone, the first or the last. kayne west is not significant to me, never was and i thought never would be. however this tweeting went mental, picking up media attention everywhere, impossible to ignore. 
kayne went on to say he was angry and exhausted and was lashing out at the way he had been exploited in his contracts and generally in the entertainment industry the managers, lawyers and agents who were mostly jewish and had ripped him off. he apologised and went on to say in an incredible interview with piers morgan he must have caused a lot of hurt and confusion to jewish people and he wanted to hug them all and asked forgiveness. 

my thoughts are this. i love him, i like his outspoken attitude, i like his honesty and feelings. i myself have been ripped off by a few jewish people, not just financially either so i get the generalisation, anger and him hitting back. however he was a man, he apologised and understood the consequences of what he had said. for this he should be praised not punished. 

kayne west is being punished for his twitting, i feel this is really dumb. he should be allowed to say what he wants and the concerned jewish people should have a right to address his issues with a reasoned response, all this outrage is pointless. 

i have to stand with him here, and there is a huge schism in the jewish people. i myself am sephardic and at an early age began to notice the difference in my own culture to the ashkenazi. it's hard to pinpoint, hard to actually define what it is but there is a difference beyond roots.

anyways kayne made a few great points in his interview, he was also somewhat narcissistic and possible on some spectrum of psychological disorder but generally i tend to like him all the more for speaking out his truth and then addressing the hurt it must have caused. i don't like the idea of him being cancelled, especially ironically by adidas whom have a nazi past. 

can't sleep these days, up so early the first rays of dawn stream in through the shades and i react like an over sensitive vampyre. the taste of blood in my mouth, i kid you not! i seem to be covered in blood, down one arm, along my lower face, and the sheets are sticky, and not in a groovy way. it is indeed blood. i have a very bad nose bleed. not sure how this happened but the metallic taste is making my throat feel dry and dessert like. i rummage around for some sunglasses. i feel my reading glasses,  a half read book that lays open on the floor and there is my phone. 
no sign of sunglasses. 
i take a shower and then coffee before i can feel half human, tiredness creases up my eyes, slightly bloodshot and something acutely out of whack . jesus i have not slept well for a few days. my brain races with a million ideas, it's so overwhelming i can't single one out from all the psychedelia. 

times like these i like to focus on something, so i pick book from the pile, something very random. oh no, it's the bible. i only have old testaments around. the new is kinda groovy and nice, a hippy from a tribe does some magick tricks and speaks of love, he's killed for it and comes back from the dead. but the old is filled with sex, drugs and high weirdness. who is this god druid smiting, directing and manifesting as burning trees? leading people through a 40 year desert, being all cosmic and vast, unknowable by only a select few bearded druids who underwent trails and tribulations. is there any escape from that kinda force. i often describe god as the dimension all other dimensions exist within. the old testament god is like that so i dig it's expansive narrative. some of those characters, undercover prophets yelling out at the mysterious director of their fate, 'no no, not me, i'm not worthy.'

but the hand that reached out through the crack in the sky is pointing directly at them,  'you will go to jaffa, you will spend a few months in the dessert, you will climb that mount, you will warn the population.'

'no no i'm not worthy,' straight into the whales mouth.

out of all the thousands of books i have, weird fictions, non fictions, books on magick, books on weird super-nature and books on geo politics, this morning my hand fell upon this. i've always found genesis the best and most significant part, basically the first three chapters as they kind of allude to the concept of creation and i feel this is the fundamental point of man, to create art. my fingers flick through the pages and find the line, 'let there be light.'

what is that light, it can't just be energy from the sun, it has to be a word of multiple meanings and concepts all tied into creation. the artists mind is light, the soul. 

i wonder if in order to see what is created you also require light.

could light also mean spiritual truth.

and this morning i am bathed in light. (can't find my socks)

 

mmm, sara gran wrote to me, (okay not to me directly but to her fan club) she wants to recommend a book, and i'm so excited i can't stop pondering what it would be. i can't imagine, all i think about is fucking her while she reads me her manuscript of her next novel. i know it's weird but she just lights me up. the fact she wrote some of the scripts from berlin station is icing on the cake. how can you better that man. 

tomorrow i'm in the surf, i hope conditions are reasonable, all i want is a good wave. the forecast is favorable, an early morning surf into the sun. breakfast at the surf cafe, and my head in my 'robots' book, it's shaping up to be a great weekend. in the afternoon i have to do some baking and make a new supply of edibles, mission control is looking good, might even mop the floors and polish them while i play my new kilbey and kennedy album loud.

i don't really wanna do anything to social, my head hurts from people.

 

big read, really surprisingly good and despite the title is a really quite a well thought out innovative novel about robots and humans. just started, not even 100 pages in but i love how its going. great characters and great world building.

so some big corporative head lady from the evil drug company admits there were no scientific studies in the vaccines when it came to stopping the virus. no science! 

but we were told to trust 'the science,' and while i was quite vocal in the idea that the science is politicised and incorrect oh how people loved to take me down. family, friends, all scoffed and laughed at me. the freak from down under! 

i'm sorry, i wish i were wrong but you all swallowed the oldest trick in the book. except ironically my mum.
so after millions of deaths from the jabs, a number that will increase, some people are now reviewing the scam-demic. or corona19-84 as i like to call it.

if there was no science in the vaccine who was pushing 'trust the science' upon us all.

world leaders, hollywood celebs, rage against the machine, neil young and the foo fighters and springsteen and the corrupt institutions that lord it over us.

the banking industry is now pushing aggressively to enable a centralised digital currency, it's all about controlling us. the banks have no cash, they can't back it therefore all the cash being printed to bail out biden and the west after covid is just paper. the arab states, russia and smart countries are abandoning the dollar, and thus the american empire needs war. all wars are usually bankers wars. not jews, not alien lizards but banks. remember jews only owned banks because not one of the banks would lend money to jews so they started their own. (that bit often gets missed out in conspiracy theories) however as i learn, i dig into the khazar mafia and intuitively see something in that. more information is needed but i will get to the truth off it.

anyway my friend is writing a report for the australian government, it's about the situation that julian assange is in, i hope it's effective and he is released back to australia under protection.

on the brink of war, and the amazing news is that world leaders will not discuss the conflict, even though putin will attend. nope, on the agenda is pandemic control and energy sustainability.

whatever you think, the cosmic cycles are completing their rotation, you can see the patterns,  see where it will go, it's very predictable to me, which makes me lots of enemies. personally, i am fantastic, great health, great positive vibe, optimistic about myself and paradoxically very much on top of it all. 

financial crisis, they come and go, on a global level, on a personal level, i see you had one, a bad investment in some dumb scam. it could happen to anyone, but it happened to you. 

ever figured out why? 

bad luck?

maybe not. so rather than beg with a bowl you take the contemporary approach, i get it, it's the less shameful way of begging i guess. people have cash to spare, they throw a few dollars your way and you fake humility and gratitude. 

i see you still like to use excuses, to frightened to look within, for through all that twisted perception one could only see distortion. the ugly fairground mirror like truth of you. 

me i had a bit of bad luck and a little good, in the end everything balances out the way it will. i gave up attempting to determine what's fair, that's not a call any human can make. certainly on a cosmic level. the universe has a way of evening the score, some say it falls towards entropy, whereas i have been blessed / cursed with a multi dimensional vision and see entropy as the inverse of  negentropy, the particle and the wave, the more we slide towards chaos the more order implied upon the secret dimensions.

when one exists in these worlds, nothing is straightforwards. instruments fail, science leads us astray. there's only one way and that's my way. i know this now. my mistake was to compromise.

silly stories of cats and books cannot save you unless you know what your doing. 

i'm sorry you had this issue, and then again it's hardly surprising.  

 

leap into armageddon, it's calamity baby. a girl with no name. she's a hornet's nest in a sharks jaw. the picture is simple but the game is complex.

china 
usa proxy war with russia =
fractured europa 

europa is a slave state of the usa.
and what's the the point of nato - keep the americas in, the russians out and the germans down.

it's amazing how so many people remain silent on the biden administration and the damage it has caused the world. pop stars, actors, experts and the left all were very vocal wanking on about trump's inadequacies and failures, wallowing the propaganda they promoted it. maybe it was trendy and fashionable, i've never followed such things so i can't say. very few remained able to think independently, and like the witch burnings in the middle ages were quick to judge. 
now they are silent.

now we are being plunged into war by these ignorant morons. you can see they are chaos inflicting chaos upon the world. ironically russia is once again cast into stopping expansionist desire to take over the world, napoleon, hitler and now the dumb fucking zombies who run the west.

hold on, this is not going to end well.