the morning takes me to an old friend, who is a professional editor, he assists me build a short u tube clip for the deep fix song eplilipsium which is now on u tube in all it's glory. the clip is simple but has some kinda interesting, if not strange surreal images to match the schizophrenic song structure, any way it reminded me why i wrote that song, it was when i discovered meredith was addicted to various pharmaceuticals and at the time i was on some heavy anti depressants due to the brain injury, i could feel my brain split into two, one half rejecting the unnatural order that the pharmaceuticals maintained and the other just falling into line, being dumbed down conditioned by some artificial chemical, it was a very strange feeling. i noticed that all the women in my life seemed to be using these pills for various reasons and it was destroying them, keeping them trapped in fear instead of facing their demons, it just made them suppress things and that would result in a vast range of destructive behaviors, ultimately rage. yeah i'd see the rage of women and it disturbed me. so i wrote this song about the ultimate pharmaceutical, epilipsium, seducing it's way to you, getting past your defenses with its romantic notions, a lover turning on, sliding closer and whispering in your ear like a siren and then when you can't resist, it turns around, and the whole experience becomes somewhat eerie and unpredictable and ultimately dangerous. 

i must confess a loathing for pharmaceuticals, yes i understand in some cases there is a need and the result is effective but these days they are far to available and insidious. drug companies do not want healthy people.