dogs are barking, pandemonium on the streets, schoolkids race by, 4WD swerves around a corner at a superfast speed, the stink of rubber floats through the air, an old man never knows how close he came to death. i look out from my balcony at the now quiet street, life, death plays out like a strange pantomime below me, around me, all is chaos and sometimes i think it's quiet beautiful, aesthetically it's a miracle but then i don't live in the sudan or downtown mogadishu, yeah it's all very nice and quiet at the end of my street. so how are you people out there, i hope life is going well for you all and it's not getting you down, i hope you are all having your dreams come true, there's a difference between wishful thinking and taking control of your life, driving your own experience, i like to drive my own but i think i may be heading along a one way street at the moment.

i am often mistaken especially by girls as a dreamer, a man with his feet firmly in the clouds along with his head, how mistaken these people are, it makes me laugh as one by one judgements are made, positions taken and conclusions drawn. yet these people have never even bothered to get to know me, to peek under the surface, i'm the first to admit i am not an easy person to get to know but i am not a closed book, ha, ironic that my life is exposed for the world to see on the net. the truth is stranger than fiction and most people wouldn't believe the experiences i have had, the highs and the lows, the incredible places i have traveled to, the faces i have seen in all my years working with the lonely, the desperate and the fringes, the microscopic activities of man and the macro ones of the galaxies above and below, i see it all, it passes through me like an old gods dream i see them all, it's not being a dreamer, it's having a wider perspective. yes my friends, as my old and dear friend the Proffessor Leary knows i am often judged becuase of the way i look and then the way i behave, how i come accross, quiet, articulate, slightly introverted, yet i take up space and form, i get under the skin, i possess and infiltrate.
i take a certain pride in having a very keen sense of politeness, my son has this to, it's something we aquirred, the code of the gentleman, although it's important to know how to be strong when nessessary, i have faught various forms of monster, myself included, and sometimes pure brute strength and endurence is all that is required. And i meet my responsibilites, to my son my dog and to myself. People often mistake my kindness for weakness, my strength for detachment and my well trained emotional responses as being some what unreachable. Not the case, i am extremely reachable, but i do not suffer fools, i am intolerent to the intolerent, although emilie says i am the most tolerent person she knows, i fight fire with fire, i know my expectations are high for people around me, yeah that's probably because i am surrounded by primates who operate on their operating system, (C1-4) I don't play games unless i chose to play and then i break the rules, i am a contra control freak, i'm to smart, to fucking good to be true.
I am part octopus and i have been out of the water for to freaking long, i need a wetsuit, i'm going to have to find one quick becuase i need to catch those waves.

On Denton last night, he smuggly nterveiwed a christian/catholic guy who denton obviously saw as a real fucking idiot, he was a giant, blonde dreaded, vacant looking, hippie who had done two years in jail for breaking into a navel base and wrecking a warship, he advocated peaceful protests and belonged to an active part of the church that sounded like more like greenpeace. As usual Denton took the approach of being a fuckwit and making his guests look dumber than he is but this guy was incredibly smart, and he was articulate. It's intresting watching the so called greatest mind on australian tv making a complete prick out of himself by falling into the same traps that the 'left' always do, they (the left) are all intellectual and no or little action, at least this guy was true to his principles. He even said that jesus was an activist, not something you hear at church, jesus was always getting in trouble, questioning authority and the staus quo, when was the last time your minister got thrown in jail for activly trying to stop a warship launching a nuclear missile. The only ministers you see in jail are the peodophiles that get busted.
I don't particularly like christians anymore than other dogma heads but i like people who practice what they preach in a way that dosn't involve mindless destruction of innocents.