when i was the house husband, in a previous life Jakob and i would spend hours watching david attenbourogh videos, he's kinda grown up with david, from about 1 to 8 that's pretty much what we watched on tv, he would have an amazing knowledge, almost photographic recall, species of jelly fish, mammels, behaviours of fish, defence mechanisms of the wild, often when we would play he would refer to some natural anomaly and his language as a child was more well developed than most adults. It was almost a ritual, ginger beer, corn chips, and david.
Now i am beginning to see Jake a bit more, we slip into the same pattern, i have the dvds so we stretch out on the sofa and watch 'Blue Planet' or 'Secret Life of Plants' together. Last night Jake came over for his first overnight stay in years, maybe 10 years, he's 18 now and having problems at his mothers, possibly with the primate boyfriend, i have not pushed him into divuldging anything, besides i am not intrested in the ex wife. Jake is wondering if he can stay with me, something i have waited 17 years to happen, it's a huge leap for him and will be a massive step in my lifestyle as i am so used to being alone, but i am kinda happy about the whole thing, we watched a couple of episodes of the blue planet, ate some thai food and got an early night, we are both recovering from some sort of flu.
I slept in my bedroom last night which is unusal, for the last 2 years i have slept where Jake sleeps now, in the spare room, my bedroom being filled with books overspill from the library room, anyways it was a strange night, lots of dreams, but deep and warm like a friendly narcotic. in the morning we watched another episode and jake asked for a lift home, its wet and cold and as we pulled up i gave him a front door key, just so he knows he has a safe place he can get to if nessessary. I don't know anything about his home life and i don't want to push, but i figure its nice to know there's a place somewhere if you need it.