the world is closing in, the time is running out
east becomes the west and north feels just like south
the space gets more confined, 
the words no longer rhyme
and it looks like we have to face the facts, 
we ran right out of time.
the girls are not so beautiful, 
they talk of strange desires
and they burn in their own inferno, 
consumed by invisible fires
all that was will be
and all that will be was

what i leave behind 

is for you to find

up at dawn, take the long walk along terrible beach, the new walkway is spectacular as the sun pierces the dawn. everyone out without the mask, without bothering about the social distancing, it's good to see. as if a flimsy mask can actually stop a virus. 'follow the science' the dumbed down zombies say, and if you do you actually discover the truth. i have to laugh at humanity, lemmings or sheep. 

i get as far north as possible and turn around, a few swimmers are out and a handful of surfers out on the point, dangerously close to the rocks.

i grab my new coffee, a macadamia latte. sip slowly watching the surf, the electric blue sky and the sun kissing my skin. it's a good life.

i've been watching the new adaptation of phillip k dicks, 'the man in the high castle' and it's excellent although the pace is slow, execution to detail is accurate and the plot intriguing, even though it deviates from the novel somewhat i wonder where it will take me. 

imagine if the nazi and japanese armies had won the war, imagine an america divided west and east, the west japanese the east german. a small slither of mid state as a free zone. imagine the japanese uneasy alliance with the nazi's as a small resistance smuggles cinema films interstate that depict an alternative reality where the allies won the war. that's just the background in which the story takes place. 

alternative history is interesting but not a genre i have really enjoyed, i read a book once about what may have happened had the american indians met the romans but generally i stay away from these types of books. pkd managed to cover many themes in his work, and alternative history of 'the man in the high castle' is recognised as one of his greatest works. 

i drive the hybrid back home, i like driving it when the roads are empty and the sun is out, it's very relaxing. at home i potter around and complete my chores, it's a good feeling. i take a few calls and then find myself exhausted so i sleep upon the chaise lounge and let the afternoon pass me by. 

every one knows only one person made it through afghanistan, alexander the great but even that was considered his greatest challenge, as just like russian, america and nato he left battered and with not much to show for it. the harsh terrain and guerrilla warfare laid claim of all of alexander's successes. despite winning most battles the torturous enviroment from ice capped mountains to dry desserts took their toll and when he left after two years the country descended into factions. he did leave a mark, cities are still standing kandahar the most infamous, he found his bride there as well. but afghanstan also left it's mark upon alexander, and it was shortly after this campaign his mental state declined into fear and paranoia, he began drinking heavily and began to demonstrate cruelty.

a famous rudyard kipling poem written during the british invasion...

and when you are wounded and left upon afghans plains

women come out to cut up your remains

just troll to your rifle and blow out your brains

and go to your god like a solider.

and now in contemporary america withdraws in the most brutal clumsy arrogant way, due to one man. an illegitimate president whom was supported by wall street, hollywood, china and the media, not to mention the countless idiots who supported him. a man whose history of foreign affairs has been failure and catastrophic decision making. always backing the wrong horse. these people are responsible. they were so politically inept and focused on stopping trump their prejudice and embedded confirmation bais was unable to see clearly. now i hope when they see their tv screens and watch mothers throwing their babies at soldiers to rescue from the taliban they realise (although they are two brain dead to ) that those soldiers they are entrusting their babies lives with are the children of the deplorables.  

what a shameful situation, the us government is a disgrace and biden must be impeached. and the people that voted for him need to get a grip on how stupid they have been. the sad thing is the vice president is even worse.  

 here's a strange tale
just over a week ago i seriously began to have trouble breathing, i'd developed a cough and my chest hurt. worse than all of this was the way i'd be exhausted after putting on my socks, walking to the mailbox or just getting up. i thought the coughing was due to having to wear a mask, but when i started coughing at home i knew something was afoot. 
so i'm at work and start to feel very strange, in fact i do something i have never done which is leave early. i planned to drive to the covid testing clinic as obviously that's what i figured i must have. it was only a matter of time and to be honest i actually wanted to catch it and have natural immunity. however by the time i arrive at the clinic it's shut, not to reopen until midday the following day. 

at home i have a shower slip into my pjs and put on some agatha christie drama. i'm establishing a theory that the second wife did it or was it the son in law?  but when my phone rings my detection skills go on hold.

its a friend, 'how are you?' she asks.

i tell her.

'get to hospital,' she says.

'no, i don't like hospitals,' i say.

my friend knows me well. she knows i won't go so she calls an uber and gives me 10 minitues to pack a bag. i'm somewhat cursing her under my breath despite her good intentions, besides my pattern recognition was about to come together and reveal the killer.

i grab a pair of pants, a fresh shirt and a toothbrush. and a dune messiah which i am reading. 

sure enough the uber is waiting.

at hospital i do all the entry questions and they place me in isolation. i know i must have the covid and when the doctor appears tell him i need a test. he gets together with a few other doctors and they look me over, start sticking me in telemetry and monitoring equipment.

you've had a heart attack, they say.

i'm moved into a new area, scanned and x rayed and various drips attached to me, and a nurse says, you need magnesium and potassium.

i get a bag of magnesium and about 20 bags of potassium, plus i have to drink several potassium tinctures. 

later they wheel me into a private room in intensive care, and leave me in isolation until they get the covid results. 

about several hours later, a nurse comes in and says she can move me, the results are negative. so i end up in a nice little room in the cardio ward. again it's sealed and has a huge shower, toilet area, it has a nice window with a fantastic view from which i can watch the sunrise, it has several monitors and quite a comfy bed. my heart rate is twice what it should be, they have to bring it down and after several days they do. i have to take some meds, and i figure these are traditional meds and tried and tested. then some nurse comes in and tells me i have to have an angiogram. there's a 1 in 1000 chance i could die from it. i have to sign some paperwork. 

the doctors and nurses are amazing, they come in introduce themselves and treat me with the upmost respect and compassion, it's incredible. this is a public hospital. i have always thought australia as one of the best health systems in the world but this proves it. even a waiter comes to take my meal orders, and there's a vast choice of different things to choose from. 

i resign myself i'm hear fro the long haul and settle into a routine. it's actually peaceful and at least i can read. there's a tv if i want but i keep it switched off. 

eventually i come to accept the peacefulness of it all and when my phone rings it becomes irritating, and although i am speaking to people who are obviously concerned about me, i really just want to be left alone. my friend who forced me into hospital thus saving my life sends me two massive bags of luxuries. however i can't eat the stuff she has sent as it's sugary, salty, liquid or irritates my throat. i do use the notebook she sent and smile at the photo she sent although the frame is broken. 

there's a few books too. some clothes that don't fit me and a toiletry bag stuffed with lipstick and eye liner. cute.

the days and nights fade into a sort of strange blur fractured by bloodtests, heart monitors and meals. most of the time i just sit by the bed reading or on the sofa watching the sun rise meditating. 

i weigh 125ks, by the time i am released i weigh 118ks, so i have to maintain weight loss and get down to about 75ks. i have to watch the liquids intake, only one litre a day. i drink one litre of coffee a day so this is going to be very hard.

eventually i am discharged. 

at home i water plants, feed fish and try to clean up the place but give in. a friend takes me shopping, she organises a set of scales with a heart monitor attached. i wander through the fruit shop, i buy a few groceries and remain perplexed at how empty this big shopping mall is, and why all the shops are shut. these covid years are bizarre years, totalitarian and dystopian are the words that spring to mind. that day in melbourne the police use tear gas and rubber bullets on people protesting about lockdowns.

the very same day i catch the pm say, 'we must always fight for freedom'

this is pretty much the information i have been reading about for over a year, actually ever since i stopped believing in the mainstream media and the lies it pushes on certain subjects. there are a number of subjects the media always lies about but this particular one has been dreadful.  it don't take a rocket scientist to join the dots, there are so many to join all pointing in one direction.

what i learnt was the vaccines only cause the virus to mutate. it has to because it's biological imperative is to infect and kill. it was designed to to do this. our bodies have a very good immunity system network that fights infections. however once you put a vaccine in it it compromises our natural immunity and targets the virus which then mutates and slips through the vaccine in it's new form and because our natural immune system is compromised we can't fight it.

no vaccine is administered in the middle of a pandemic.  it's given after when the virus is a singular not variant.

basic elementary research into evolutionary science indicates this yet the people that attack me say i don't follow science, it's true to a point. i certainly don't follow politicalised science which is basically what all the science is nowadays. 

why the mainstream media pushes this narrative boils down to one man, george soros, a fucking evil bastard if ever there was one, just like fuaci, gates, schwab and the other fucking technocrats who basically have all the power and control. all it requires is to begin joining the dots. the left wing woke ideology is a threat to the way of life we have, debate all you wish about the illusion of freedom but given a choice i rather live in the illusion of freedom than the grim truth of a technocracy.  

its weird  how people who follow science follow it religiously and with the same zealot attitude applied to religion. i've always figured the two entwined, science a religion for sceptics. if you know anything about science it evolved from alchemy which is a spiritual pursuit. what most people follow now is a church of science.

contemporary science is a political tool, just like religion, far removed from any kind of truth. which is why this vax thing is a scam, and the more it's pushed the more obvious it becomes. i do feel all people need to do is listen to the information they are not allowed to listen to, put away their confirmation bias because mostly what they end up doing is politicising the argument unconsciously. me i have an open mind, happy to discuss other perspectives yet when i do, people play me and say i live in a 'science fiction world' rather than a science one. i've noticed these types love to play the person not the points raised, attack the man not the argument is a typical communist tactic. anyway the science fiction world is now reality as we move further into the trans human age, george soros, bill gates and kluas schwabb sit above elected governments (democracy is dead until free elections are revived) injecting graphene into the body and changing the genetic code of the human is possibly in my own personal philosophy the most immoral thing a human can do. 

a jewish hippie guy says there is only one unforgivable sin, it's not lust, gluttony, envy etc, its to blaspheme the holy spirit, the body is a temple. it says the same thing in the old books but jesus seems to carry more weight than moses. anyway the first step in transhumanism is to change the body. let me say here and now, i'm all for it however there are ways to do this that work well and evolve the human species in line with the natural order. read up on noah and tubal cain as allegory. 

speculating in my 'science fiction' way, the singularity is upon us. these people that have far to much money and power need one more thing. life extension. they wanna life forever. and this is their pathway. i don't have a problem with eternity, i've been around almost as long but there are other methods to do it, spiritual ones. but these guys have no connection to spirit, they surrendered their humanity a long time ago. they wanna build back better, they don't want you to own anything yet are vastly materialistic themselves and they need to depopulate the world. it's been on the front page of the united nations website for 30 years when i was going on about agenda 21 and everyone was thinking i was nuts. now any switched on cat is aware of agenda 31 (as they call it now)

when i lived in avalon we all knew about it. we discussed it and understood the implications, especially when it came to the codex alimentarius and the plan to ban any supplementary medicines.  that was a long time ago and they are still tying, spanning out from the united nations into world health, into various ngos and soros funded  agencies and in league with the chinese communist party. big tech loves the ccp, they are the same thing, where do you think all that surveillance software comes from.

science fiction, nope, this is science reality, the world we live in. 

anyway if you got the vax i don't blame you, i was very fearful but i guess skeptical enough to investigate. i just looked at the media and realized they all seemed to be pushing the same story without asking the obvious questions. what's in the vaccine and why should people whom have already recovered from covid be forced to take it? why are you not talking about the side effects or promoting the yellow card system (in uk) and what happened to all the people that died of flu? and the bleeding obvious one every single journalist needs to ask right now, gibraltar?

to me these were obvious questions and i sought out the answers, however what i experienced was if you seek answers you are vilified, not just by authority but the vaccinated. they literally dance on the grave of skeptics when they die from covid. these compassionate hypocrites actually get joy when someone dies. i don't want anyone to die, i actually wish i were wrong, it's not a fucking game yet the global establishment and media made it one. even the stats didn't make sense and then you discover that the scientists, virologists, doctors and molecular biologists who have a different opinion are now cancelled and have gone underground. i listened to a vast amount of people talking freely about this including dr. robert malone the man whom invented mrna vaccines. he has had to go underground because the american govt have threatened him. the ex chairperson of pfizer has warned people not to get the vax unless they are compromised and anyone who advocates the alternative successful treatments are either struck of by whatever authority overseas their profession. you can't see that doctor crying his eyes out in a senate hearing begging to be allowed to continue prescribing invermetin, saying he had saved hundreds of his patients lives with it. you tube banned it.

so i have no more energy to wank on about it, i made my own decision. i want to get the virus, i don't mind. that way i will build up my own antibodies and don't need the jab. if i die then i die and it's on me. you can all dance upon my grave but i am not going to cave into media pressure from celebs, politicians and peers who try guilt games as if they are unaware that even the vaccinated can infect. in fact what they have yet to learn is the vaccinated actually cause the variants. this is what dr. malone and hundreds of virologists have said ( you never vaccinate in an epidemic only after it) and explained it in evolutionary terms. if the virus comes up against a defence it will adapt, it's what all viruses do.that spike protein is a biological weapon. take gibraltar which is almost fully vaccinated. yet it's now reporting a 2500% increase in infected cases. 

anyways work it out for yourselves here i'm not out to convince anyone just state my own perception. and if another person says, 'come down to earth' to me i will fucking cancel them myself. what a fucking insult to say to a social worker. 

here's some science that is not political but remember, you can't un-see this

it's like a scene from a bad movie, some people are at the door awaiting payment. i search through my bag pulling out items, pens, books, a spare mask, a scarf, a scrap of paper, another pen and wait... whats this, some lacy thing which as i open turns out to be a pair of womens black panties.  i stuff it back in and grasp my wallet. this is a new bag, a few weeks old.
later i ponder these undies, whose are they and how did they get in my bag, did anyone notice, and do i care. i have no idea where they came from. 

my life's like that.

wandering along the shoreline, following the starfish trail, the waves are tranquility blue, layered in a network of codes and lattice like information, i read the energy and inhale the negative ions. it's almost green today, crisp air, sharp and blade like while the rising sun begins to make a slight difference, dial turning up, skin adjusting. it's all so beautiful. 
not many out this early, mostly people stick to the path whereas today i've gone off track, onto the sand. when my cousin came out here he declared it was the most beautiful and fave place he had ever seen.  he loved it, whereas i love it and let it love me. 
the birds are healthy, clean and filled with an energy that keeps them young. they swoop down to investigate and a couple of pelicans circle above my head. 
the water is free from people, no surfers, swimmers, boats, it's moving form is nebulous liquid and when i get to the golden path i stop. 

my salutation to neptune. it's been a long time since we communed.

okay, it's been a while since i wrote anything political or controversial but here are my thoughts, her's what i think and no doubt it's going to cost me but it's time to listen.

firstly i understand how you felt about trump, you read the sydney morning herald, you watch and listen to the abc, you believe these guys are the gospel, why would we think differently. i have an advantage, i followed all that socialist bullshit as a kid, and religiously read the guardian. i believed in them and then they sold out sarah tisdall a young public servant who like me thought these people were onside. the guardian fucking sold her out and she went to jail because she had a conscious. these left winger i learnt have no principle, they fight a side no matter what it is who it is or what they say. this is why they cancel people. the argument makes no sense, their arguments are riddled with hypocrisy and double standards and the media lie about almost everything that does not push their globalist agenda. 

now as an adult i find myself alienated in my lack of respect for the left, i see through the academic intellectual ideology, i see through the university brainwashed thinking, the weapons they use are absurd. they call racists, sexists out at every chance while ignoring their own. 

not that i have much respect for the other side, i loathe them to but i'm capable of following an argument on policy without attaching it to a side. a good idea is a good idea. 

when trump came along i was happy as he was not a politician, he was no great orator but he did make a commitment to, 'drain the swamp,' and the swamp is vast and wide and deep. it's the deep fucking state.

from the word go the establishment attacked him, called him a russian agent and ignored all the incredible things he did economically. all i expect from any govt. is to get a good economy in their country. they tried to nail him every chance they got, they humiliated him, banned him, lied through their teeth about him and denigrated any achievement he made. when asked why they were out to get him he replied, 'they are not really out to get me, they are out to get you, i am just in their way.'

the most powerful statement ever made by any president.

cancelled!

so we got biden in a stolen election, (chinese hackers working with some naughty democrats like pelosci) sure joe was promoted by all the establishment, hollywood, wall street (who just lost a trillion dollars of american workers pension funds to the chinese), the left and the usual suspects but he's suffering demetia and will be removed soon. it's elder abuse to keep him propped up while he forgets who and where he is. his son and him got a free pass from the media when they knew hunter was having sex with underage kids, on the payroll of the chinese govt. and being used to gain access to his dad. 

while western govts, america and australia funded wuhan scientists in gain of function research the chinese knew only one man on the global stage stood in the way of their ambition, hong kong, tiawan and the south pacific. it was trump. 

the war had already started 10 years earlier, via the economy. china had been buying up strategic points all over the globe. it had become the manufacturing agent of the world thanks to weak western leadership and dumb decisions made by left and right globalists. the un had already done the work, modelled itself of chinese communism under the alluring concept of the great reset, a mish mash of technology, environmentalism, socialism and control, i call technocracy.

this is where the individual is ruled by the expert, only the expert is on the payroll of the dictator. thus china moved into the second stage of its war and released flights directly into the wold infected with covid while restricting internal flights. the biological warfare caught us by surprise, even now no body has looked into the genesis of the event. the who is corrupt and on the chinese payroll so their investigation was compromised. and now a year and a half later we see troops on the streets of sydney keeping people in check should they take of their mask. 

the truth is this c-19 is a deadly virus that kills less than 0.01% of the infected, usually those with compromised immune systems and vaccines should be used for those people. but know this, vaccines create mutations and variants, it's simple evolutionary biology, and ironically all the automatons that blurt out how much they follow science are not following science at all. they are following the technocracy. the science has been cancelled. the vaccines have a life of 6 months, if people had researched the pharmaceutical companies they would have seen the investor page where investors were told they would have annual returns on the software of the vaccine as it had to be administered and updated. 

think. if they really wanted to keep you safe they would have said use hydroxychloroquine which is tested has a very high success rate against c-19 and is safe. same with invermectin which pulled india out of an appalling death rate quickly. these facts have been cancelled.

why was the govt health experts not telling people to increase their intake of vitamin c and d and zink and eat vegetables and avoid processed foods. the masks inhibit oxygen which we need, the social distancing creating anxiety and depression which compromise the immune system. why are the streets of south west sydney filled with soilders enforcing these stupid rules while the beaches of east sydney are packed. why is the biden administration forcing vaccines on people including children while letting 2 million people through the mexican border who are untested. 

if you have a critical eye, nothing about this makes sense, there are so many inconsistencies, olympic games, sports is allowed but numbers at a funeral have to be limited?  

you have to have swallowed the cool aid if you trust the technocracy have your interests at heart, or if you think they are benevolent. they are the same bastards that have been in control for the last 30 years, getting more and more control from the individual. so much control they now tell you when you are sick. 

these experimental vaccines have not been tested, they are not fda approved and the cdc is now admitting they do not work. investigate the spike protein in your body. it's the most dangerous weapon in this war. 

it took me almost 50 years to get around to reading dune, which many say is the best sc fi novel ever written.  i can understand why it holds that title. now all i want to do is read the sequence and see what herbert does with his story and where he takes us.

i can't say it is the best sci fi novel i have read but it certainly is amongst the top, it's scale is massive and the story once you crack it moves fast and has considerable nuance.