being stuck, in-between books, can't make a decision on what book to start reading, so i have about five happening but the idea of commitment to one is sending me mental like an autistic loop, i need to just pick one. and then there's the new deep fix project, that's happening as information downloads are occurring rapidly, ideas are germinating and sprouting yet the concept is very difficult to articulate, i may just need to draw this one out and let the words come later. i have the whole finished concept in my head, it's now just the breaking it into a narrative that's somewhat linear and descriptive in a language, especially as i use words, the music will be easy as i can describe that and val and my fellow musicians will transcribe.
this is the process of creation i guess, it's such a pure thing, divine. very kabbalistic. i often wonder if plato was versed in kabbalistic knowledge, i'd have to say yes, the greek culture was undoubtably influenced by the hebrew and the hebrew from the sumerian and the sumerian from the pleades i guess. anyway the ancients had a good relationship with symbolic representation, i think as the brain evolved and became two hemispheres, things began to shift in terms of our relationship with the universe. consciousness began to accept the duality, yet that is the illusion of reality and therefore the illusion of language.
anyways i gotta chose a book to read.