what is a looser?


well he could be the drunk guy starting a fight, he could be the guy that gets bottled in the night club by the drunk guy, he could even be a she. the spoilt little girl who inherits her daddies fortune but not his humility i dunno, winners and losers, a winner may win a few hundred grand on a horse race and then loose it on the dogs, a winner could be a looser if they marry the girl of their dreams only to find out she's sleeping with his best friend, or perhaps a winner could be a looser if they think by taking some one to court and trying extortion they get the person to hand over some free cash before it all goes down, i dunno, i don't care about that, it's all bullshit to me, winners and losers, no one wins no one loses, it's the realm maya so everything you say or do is kinda predictably unimaginative and uninteresting when you are drunk. 


i expected your post court room attacks, the abusive messages, the tantrums, like i said, i know you, i see you and i call you. that thing inside you knows this, it fears me because i can kill it. 
i forgive you, i don't like you but i do love you, as hard as that may appear to you to make sense. it's not totally your fault but you need to take responsibility, blaming everyone else in your life is kinda like being a professional victim, i know you're better than that. you can transcend if you chose, however i can't help you anymore and i'm not the best punching bag for you as your words are empty. 


i don't know, i thought about how i would define a looser and i came up with this,


'someone who when they loose can't allow themselves to loose gracefully' 


i hope you get there, i really do.


om sri rama jaya rama jaya jaya rama