sometimes i read nick caves red hand files, they are sent directly into my e mail folder and occasionally if i like the question I read his answers. firstly it's very intimate, extremely authentic, nick cave writes with a humanity i can't see i have seen in any rock personality ever before. i imagine grief like his does that, it either steals your humanity or makes it. i like the diverse range of people that reach out too him with their questions, often very personal, it's sometimes like an agony aunt but with a profound moving energy, not fickle or trivial. i've come to love nick cave through his writing, that transformation from dark lord to light source is remarkable, and i respect him immensely. i can't say i have always been a fan, my first introduction to cave was when i worked for the dept. of health in london and a co worker from melbourne played me  the birthday party, not my cup of tea at all. years later two seperate girls i was involved with played me. 'let love in,' 'boatman's call' and 'no more shall we part.' i loved those albums, and quickly developed an appreciation especially after seeing 'the bad seeds' live over a number of years. so there's the music and there's the man, it's hard not to respect both.