so now trump derangement syndrome is in full swing again, all the usual suspects, pop stars, actors, minor celebrities, influences and the influenced are out going on and on about fascism, war, bulling and various other accusations that validate their perspective. all founded upon lies. 

not one of the brain dead zombies understood what went on in the white house with zelensky, because they watched a 3 minute grab that was on television or you tube. very few actually saw the whole thing, and few didn't know what happened just before the meeting, once again showing how easily manipulated they are and how much they invest in the herd mentality. it's not just do what your told, it's think what your told. 

it's my birthday, very weird to be 63 years old and feel the wear and tear upon my body so acutely, despite looking better than i have in decades, the weight shifting, my muscles developing a tone, my strength increased by a noticeable difference, yet my internal body is in decline and the organs are all bringing a form of entropy.

a side effect of this is a strange narcoleptic weariness that engulfs me, sleep like a siren lures me into it's soft arms, from sleep to sleep, dream to dream, nightmare to nightmare, sleep to waking state i can't help feel but is a dream or nightmare itself. it's a malaise from which i cannot shake myself. energy depleted, the weight upon me feels overwhelming and i am not sure why it should be so. sometimes i feel the only intervention is a pact, my inner goth metamorphosed to an inner gothe. in my strange phase i keep looking over my shoulder for a stray poodle who happens to follow me home.