these last few weeks have drifted by and i feel like i am caught in a vortex, sucked into the inevitable confrontation with the nemesis i work with, after many years of being subjected to her hostility and erratic behaviors, after the team have basically all accepted their fear i am about to meet her in a grievance meeting offering a full account of her behavior to me. many of my colleagues including my boss have attempted to talk me out of this. everyone wants to avoid the issue, everyone wants to stick their head in the sand, people feel threatened and scared by her and the fact she is pregnant means she will be on maternity leave soon. Although 12 months without her would offer relief its not the right course of action for me. I need to confront this.
my main point of fear is the fact is i have evidenced her behavior and have wittnesses and i also have documented points that will 'destroy' her totally. however in all good conscience that's not what i want to do.

other news in downtown babylon, i made two ned friends with a husband and wife team from the UK. Jules and Nik, whom i have to say i really enjoy chatting to. Our mutual friends, Steve and Linda often meet and have a good laugh and chat about things and i find myself quite stimulated by their take on life. Its very unusual to have this level of conversation with people.
Jake has finished his course and now is waiting for the next round, he has been working a bit and occassionally we cross paths for lunch. i'm not sure what his plans are for xmas but i hope i get a chance to see him at some point.

the internet dating experience is insane, three dates in a few days, all of them relativly nice people but there was no chemistry, both ways. For me the whole thing is chemistrey, that pheremone exchange when some weird impulse gets switched on and the game is afoot. Well there was none of that happening, in fact it was all abit mundane.

My brother Martin seems to be on his way out, ETA Feburary, so i am looking forward to meeting him again, we have some ideas to do some kinda work together, perhaps a deeporg corperate course. Who knows what could happen, my stuff is very radical and he's the window in to that world being from the corperate world.

Saturday night is the space rock vegan bash with the church, so i am looking forwards to that. I'm giving steve an xmas present and payment for blogging.