cancer.

that c word again, what is it why do we get it, i have theories, ideas i have collected that may or may not be true. it appears many people i know have cancer in one form or another and i am no expert at all. it's always been something of a mystery to me, something that i just blank upon when it came up in conversations, a sort of medical term for some complex type of cell mutation, not something i am interested in. words like remission, benign, malignant and remission seemed to fly way above my head and on a need to know basis i never needed to know. anyways, at the moment several people i am close to and some i am not are all suffering from it or have had close encounters. now my ex wife has it. it's appears terminal in her case and although i have nothing to do with her it's tragic as she is only early 60's and obviously it effects my son who has to deal with it.

my own process would be o avoid all medical treatments, and throw myself into ayahuscia or sound therapy, sounds via vibrational medicine and alternative treatments, and i would probably die. but there is no way I will surrender to the medical model. it's inherently wrong and although society invests in it i don't. so if i get cancer chances are i will die.

however i don't plan to, i plan to live and grow old on my own terms. cancer can get fucked.

anyways my theories are:

it's some sort of parasite and can be treated as such

it's a physical manifestation of emotional trauma

it's caused by the covid vaccinations

it's just a fuckin nasty illness nature throws at us.

who really knows. all i know is i'm kinda sick of how much money is wasted on so many unessessery things when we could just cure it. if we had a will for where there's a will there's a way. it stands to reason if we can get to the moon we can cure this, so why haven't we.

logic says, it's because its a cash cow, an industry which keeps the markets spinning and a cure would be catastrophic for the multinationals and peripherals who profit from it.

a friend of mine told me that research after the holocaust showed that none of the survivors had heart disease, kidney disease, cancers, in fact all their organs were clean. recently i heard a guy who was captive of hamas for two years say when he was released the doctors could not believe how healthy his organs were. he was officially starving but internally his organs were clean. they said it was a mystery. maybe the way to deal with cancer is to fast but it's so extreme. i could only manage 24 hours. i guess if you are forced it's a different story.

stupid cancer. i wish it would just fuck off.