sometimes i feel like catweasel in this modernity, puzzled by technology, it does seem like a weird anti magick to me, a sort of short cut through science. i am more comfortable with synchronicity, dream messages, coincidence and telepathy where things just happen or events happen to align with needs and desires but then half off me lives in a world i have to navigate, bills, work, other people and constructs that are irrational and anti natural. 

life was simple and free when were just focused upon survival, gathering food, maintaining shelter and security and we had the rest of the time to play. now it's just work and if we are lucky there's a window to be creative or pursue acts of devotion to the universe but that window is shrinking the more we are invested in modernity. 

however there is techno- magick, and i guess that crosses the bridge. however the algorythm is the ghost in the machine and often influences the outcome more than the magickian. yep, it's a stacked deck. now if i could just figure out how to use this mobile telling bone. 

i have a few weeks off work, i have doctors appointments, a jack frost gig to go to and plenty to do around the house, but i am enjoying being in my natural rhythm, deep sleeps and a fixed routine help me navigate the day. it feels new to only have to consider myself and meet my needs rather than several others. i'm slowly coming back to myself, old captain mission post maldives is a different one than the man that went, he's almost stress free, missing the heat and tropics but realigning probabilities and working things out.