sometimes you have to look to the light to see the dark, sometimes you have to look to the dark to see the light, it's one of those paradoxes that make up spiritual growth and life on earth. some people claim to be one or the other, especially those light worker nut jobs who parade around with their kart tolls literature and half assed understandings of quite complex concepts. i'm not saying you need to be an expert in any form of spiritual understanding, the most spiritual are just gardeners and labourers not priests or healers. the truth is a a light worker cannot say they work in the light, they bring light or they are the embodiment of light, they cannot claim any more divinity than anyone else, and if they were honest they would say they are dark workers but that has not got that nice middle class housewife ring to it, it's not quite the envy generating terminology that attracts friends and the neighbour. light worker is safer and deflects the reality of the actual work. that's why i dig witches, an ancient term for energy worker. there's something sexy about that kinda authenticity. 

there's a lot going on for me, conflicts as ego's clash against my own strength, miscommunications because people cannot understand complex english, or hear what they want to hear, avoidance and attempts to embarrass, what's that term for people who like to get the last word in....i can't recall it. anyways that's wok at the moment where i am the challenger and manager by proxy dealing with various complex personalities and generally lazy staff who do anything they can to avoid work which generally means i have to do it.

roll on may when i take a month off and follow my heart.