Saturday, December 30, 2023

the best tv show this year is actually a few years old, and i had already read the books. it's called 'the expanse' and it's a science fiction 6 series story although there are 10  novels.

the story is at a basic level first contact but it's obviously much more, as each series has its own theme that pushes the story forwards. it's political as fuck, gritty and humane. again the characters have great story arcs, their inter personal relationships are complex and humorous and as the series progresses you can see each member of the crew has a history they are attempting to escape but just keeps catching up with them. there is one storyline that needed to continue, it just seemed to vanish but it only makes an appearance in the last season. however the books continue much further.


research tells me that the show was axed suddenly and prematurely which  makes season 6 seem rushed and without the time to draw the conclusion out satisfactory, but it's nonetheless still good and the resolution excellent.

Friday, December 29, 2023


reading this year has been slim pickings, i started a lot of books i had to finish but regretted starting. my pile of books to give away / sell down the market is growing larger, and i'm feeling a general disappointment in the quality and type of story telling i seem to enjoy and then along came, steve's new book.

it's a novella, and it's a companion piece to the album although can be read independently.
i guess the book kinda pieces the album together in a way that gives it a linear structure and assessable coherency as a concept album. 
i guess the first thing that hooked me was the style, it's written as a fast paced kinetic adventure / mystery but you can hear steve's voice reading it. you can follow his flow, pick up on the nuances and humour, the way characters reflect reality, the pace, the timing and the little deviations he makes. it's a rock and roll novel, sex, drugs and gigs, interpersonal relationships, and writers block. 
a famous respected but fading rock star eros zeta addicted to a drug that is getting him nowhere creatively, a relationship that just reenforces the drug habit and a lack of inspiration, eros hears about the strange device known as the hypnogogue that offers to pull great art from artists while they dream, a device that is part spiritual, part machine, part organic, part technological, part extra dimensional, possibly alien or maybe a mixture of all. 
this is the science fiction element which resonates with me, i love sci fi and it's very rare to find a novel that can capture science fiction well and in an authentic way, true to what the ethos of science fiction is and should be.
this managed to do that. it took two days to read but at a slow loving pace, i really soaked up the atmospheres and the descriptions. it's not convoluted or high brow, just a great story, well written with a poetic layer that steve excels at in all his art.
book of the year by a mile!
 
genuinely, i have not read anything this year as good.
my only criticism is it should have been longer, i didn't want it to end.



Tuesday, December 26, 2023

as i strive for peace and love it's very difficult not to be at war with my shadow side, a cynical, part angry, part disappointed, part fatalistic jaded man who cannot understand the way the zombies have taken over the world. i always said, aim for the head. 

anyway here i am if you want me zombie horde but i will go down fighting you all until i can't and then i will transition to a new level of existence where i will be free of you all. the zombie hordes of ignorance, fear and hate. those whose ideology has taken over their brain parts and now seeks others to consume. ideologies of extreme hate, irrational and inverted. they are everywhere. 

a few thousand years ago a jewish guy was born, he was an odd ball who didn't fit in. he didn't like the way people put materialism before spirit, he didn't like memes that infected the zombies of his age, he didn't like exploitation and he went of to learn from the holy druids for a few years, he studied kabbalah (as evidenced within the lords prayer) he then returned to his people to lead them towards love. as usual the authorities determined he should be executed. but you can't kill a good idea and love is a pretty dam perfect one. 

love your enemies.

a statement that is possibly the most powerful i've ever heard. off course it don't mean you can't kill them, it means much more than that. 

so in this terrible year of suffering, (arn't they all) on this xmas season, i love my enemy. the islama- fascists, the weird jew haters and hypocritical left wingers and the so called greens who all aligned themselves with the extreme right wing fascists, the real ones. i hope your turkey of ideology gets well roasted until it's burnt to a crisp and you choke on it. and while you choke, i will watch with love.

merry xmas 

Sunday, December 24, 2023

i seem to be going through a stranglers revival, i really liked that band and now i can't stop listening to them. they were probably the most interesting punk band in the sense that they did change their direction many times, and challenge their audience to the point of loosing them and then gaining a new one. they were loud, brash, sexist, menacing, un-apologetically following their own star until hugh cornwall discovered heroin and wrote 'golden brown' a song that was top of the pops globally. 
with a record label expecting a follow up hit they released a 14 minite waltz sung in french. that was the stranglers, sticking it to the man all the way. they imploded due to internal friction and regrouped without hugh. sad but they still pushed forwards and made some great songs. 
to see them live was a joy, everyone wearing black and sneering, part goth part punk, a strange hybrid that worked for me.
possibly the most obtuse stranglers album is, 'the men in black'  but i personally really liked the two albums 'feline' and 'la folie.' the strange energy of these two albums, slow and strangely electronic, not pop songs or rock, something different.
the band had a keyboard player called dave greenfield, he was amazing and accomplished, slightly autistic. it would not be unusual to hear him playing harpsichord, mellatron, hammond or baby grand. they guy was a wizard on the keyboard. one of my fave songs is the kick ass cover of 'walk on by' which has the delivery of a man who is really feeling it. not love in it's classic post romance incarnation but love as an angry bitter energy. 
it really is a great song, dionne warwick's version pales into insignificance after this version. i am pretty sure i still have the single somewhere.

'just go for a stroll in the trees...' 
and then cue dave greenfield banging away and that power bass from old jj. it's so rare a cover outclasses the original. but listen good.
i guess the stranglers are quintessentially a london band but jj was a frenchman, and he plays base unlike anyone else, always pumping along relentlessly. brilliant.
dave and the drummer jet black are dead now but the band still carries onward, not quite the same but still interesting. ever changing yet keeping that distinctive sound.
as far as lyrics, go check out 'genetix' from the album the raven or 'no more heroes anymore.'
a band singing about genetic modification and gene splicing in one song and leon trotsky, sancho panza in another. 
not my fave band but a worthy band, 'the stranglers.'
 


Saturday, December 23, 2023

its weird watching some show where they are explaining the pop band 'wham' has a number one hit in the uk with that irritating song, 'last christmas.'
i knew those guys and girls from wham, it's so weird that they ever made it so big, but george was pretty ambitious and driven. i must admit i loathe their music. 
while they were on the ascent i was playing lou reed and bowie covers in a band called the blue meanines with a bunch of south london misfits. we were no pop stars, we were the opposite, sort of arrogant, ugly, unruly, not a club band but a garage one. we did have one musician who played guitar and guided us through our follies. i am still very good friends with tez. and we had one talented  musician who played keyboards. he's gone on to do amazing things. the rest were more pirate than players. martin von donaldson looked like ziggy but played like keef, mano our intrepid spanish base player who liked the jazz cigarettes. tez was like a sage, he had experience and wisdom, we all looked up to him, even me with my weird outta whack singing, and cavorting. there was no way were were pop star material like those wham boys, but we had a certain mystique and appeal to the more avant garde, a soul and depth. no songs about xmas and broken hearts, just crack baby crack i just want your sex, we were all sneer and spite.
anyways, my memories of wham are fading, i was good friends with both of them especially shirley whom went on to marry martin kemp from that god awful spandu ballet, but when i knew her she was a punk.
yeah, last christmas i gave you my heart.


Wednesday, December 20, 2023

yesterday threatened rain all day, today delivers as mission control battens down the hatches,  and prepares for deluge. i manage to put some indoor plants outside for a soaking, not all but some, i can rotate tomorrow. it's grey and the constant sound of rainfall drives me nuts like a slow torture. my garden however is in ecstacy as the ferns and flowering bromeliads, the wilting tiger grass and towering black bamboo all dance with the joy only rainfall can bring. it's glorious to watch from inside.

and inside i watch a few episodes of 'the expanse' and strangely discover there are two series which i didn't even know existed. it's becoming a very interesting story, an amalgamation of the book series,  and i am really enjoying the styling and production values. the whole thing works well as there is a nice attention to detail plus a creative effect which lays just over the surface, like to strange hybrid languages factions converse in,  the three dimensional characters and the black humour. everyone is awkward and no one really seems to know what they are doing. it's good.


Tuesday, December 19, 2023

well the specialist didn't have good news for me, and it looks like i may have to return to hospital for some more weird procedures and experimentation early next year. this came as a blow to me, i was kinda hoping i could put it all behind me, and move forwards. i can't really move anywhere now.

still time pushes on, events pivot, the background changes colour but the foreground is the same. conclusions become beginnings, it's always the way, a never ending story because it is one big long story of cycles and loops. i am indeed a strange loop. but i move ever forwards. the knight of nights.

in the mid east the same old situation, the west getting everything inverted as it tells isreal to stop the war, ceasefire now! all that sounds good in theory but they are telling the wrong side, if they want to stop the war they should tell hamas to release hostages, they should ask why hamas broke the last ceasefire or let israel finish what it must do. there's agendas at play, only those with x ray vision can see it. it's been like that for many many decades but on it goes.

i wake up super early, go through my morning rituals. i even manage to do some gardening at 6am. it's very overcast, grey and heavy skies threaten storms. i batten down the hatches,  make sure my supplies are stocked before deluge falls. it's weirdly humid, sweat beads form as soon as i emerge from the shower. a dog barks, everything feels very ominous as if the sun is about to flare.

good news is i can start 'eros zeta' today. yay!

Monday, December 18, 2023

i'm about to see the specialist, maybe i can make a full recovery like last time, it's not impossible. in the meantime my love life is beginning to look interesting. i feel ready so i guess the cosmos is sending me some applicants. 
my best friend died having sex with a brazilian stripper just as they were going to go out for dinner, it always seemed like the best way to go. the weather has been humid and bright, i've been waking up at dawn and catching waves, despite average surf one wave in every hundred makes it worthwhile. i ride that baby in zen style, the solar system imploding in my brain. everything happening all at once, it's incredible. then there's the house, i throw myself into some hardcore domestics. jakob helps clear two rooms, i still have about 300 books to sell, next market day. i've decided to cut price down to $5 each. come on, these are quality life changing novels, you will thank me for them later.
i've had to slow down at work, i can't do everything so i'm delegating. it's good, i gotta remember i'm an old man not a teenager.  a slimmer one too. all that hospital food and i dropped dramatically. i just couldn't eat that junk. 
must admit during this period where half the population of earth wants to kill me and mine i am enjoying watching 'the expanse' again. it's a great series if you like science fiction with a political twist. i also love watching the un ambassador to isreal give his speeches to the assembly, he's so good. it's about time someone told those bastards how useless they are.
i've been reading a fair amount as well but nothing spectacular, i'm about to read 'eros zeta and the hypnogogue.' 
i'll post a review soon. 
i'm doing laundry today, heaps off it. it's taking over the whole day spilling into my down time but it feels good getting it done. there's rain on the way so i hope it all drys out by dusk.
the difference between me and you is simple. when a bunch of people behead and murder babies, children, mothers and fathers, people dancing at a 'peace' rave, which the attackers video and then kidnap rape and torture women, kids and grannies leaving a trail of butchery behind for their followers to rejoice in, i don't go out on the streets and celebrate. i don't wave a flag or shout out to my god, what a great day it is, or how happy i am. 
yeah i am jewish by birth, i have very little interest in the religion but having been and lived in israel many times over the years i know what an exceptional country it really is, why amazing people choose to live there, no matter what their religion, or ethnicity. i worked with many palestinians who love isreal because they are free to be who they want to be without the threat of being thrown of a rooftop or dragged bound and chain by a motorbike because of their sexuality or desire to be free from authoritarian control. despite the lies there is no apathid for any israeli citizen.
i picked olives in an orchard with palestinians who loved isreal, loved their lives and laughed with me in the sun as brothers. many isrealis are married to palestinians, but you would never read that in the guardian or the abc.
jewish isreali children are not indoctrinated from birth to hate their enemy, quite the opposite.
the biggest mistake most people make is to equate the issue of thinking israel is separate from judaism. it is not. the israelis are not murdered because they are israelis, they are murdered because they are jews. 
it's very obvious to any astute political thinker, it's nothing to do with land.
evidence of this is global as attacks upon jews before the state of isreal and the way it has been minimized after the state of isreal was declared. murders and attacks occur everywhere in europe towards jews. it's just not reported. just like the pakistani grooming gangs are not reported or the rape culture in sweden was never reported. it's often covered up, it's usually dismissed for a number of reasons. first being the amount of islamic immigration into western democracies that most politicians have to supplicate. 
they vote and people want their vote. 
politicians don't have principles anymore, there are no great leaders, just dependents. dependent upon the vote.
another reason is the amount of pure hatred, jealously and resentment most people have towards jews. left and right side of politics, they hate jews and these days it's unfashionable to attack a minority so they attack israel which ironically is a minority.  a single secular jewish state in an ocean of muslim ones. 
and for all you anti- white colonial haters out there isreal is not 'white.' 
commentary like thinking it's comprised of europians is just dumb, and very obviously ignorant.
i am a good example of that. jews are multi ethnic, including asian and african.

so, a peace rave huh, i mean that's liberation!
citizens from all over the planet, dancing for peace. and you dance on the streets because you see it as a 'celebration' they were gunned down, beheaded brutally raped and kidnapped.
you don't want to believe it, its a conspiracy, where's the proof you scream. and after having the proof you still won't believe it because your sickness is deranged and pathological.

i've been in isreal at war, when isreal defends itself its citizens are very solemn and, all, yes all, feel tragically for the people in gaza. i know this because i have seen it and felt it myself so for me it is real. i respect the sanctity the jews have for life itself despite what the media and harvard promotes. the media is a self perpetuating hate machine, it needs conflict, chaos and war. it needs division, just like our masters. and both gaza and isreal are puppets manipulated by a deep deeper state that really pulls the strings of everyone, especially now as conflict, war, fear is exactly what distracts us from the criminal activities of our own governments. the ones that support isreal at the same time they fund iran. the ones that promote peace are the ones that make war. 
unlike you. i do stand with isreal, neither because i am perceived as jewish but because i understand antisemitism and those that perpetrate it.
thousands of pro hamas people were firing flares at an opera house that was  lit up in blue and white light, in a token-like gesture.  no 'star of david' in sight because that would just be to much. the police allowed these supporters to yell, 'gas the jews.'
and there were thousands of them. in fact the police arrested, the only arrest, a jewish man who was there with his flag to pay his respect to the dead.
while these people have a right to march and support their side, what they were doing was celebrating a death cult, with a police escort, while a single man with an israel flag was arrested for showing his solidarity with israel's dead. in subsequent marches jews were told to stay away, remove all emblems of identification as jews as this is to much of a provocation. this don't effect me at all but it is disgusting and the way everyone is complicit in their silence is equally disgusting. 

sure you can hate us, i know you do. i feel it everyday and have done since i was a child at skool, i've seen it from friends, ex girlfriends and an ex wife, people i meet through my life, intelligent lovely people suddenly show their pathology without understanding i may be of jewish decent. they just spill the beans, it pours out eventually. it don't scare or intimidate me, i'm very used to it. most jews, even the ones that don't support israel know deep down they will be someones target down the line, they just are far to frightened to admit it thus they mostly are the left wing appeasers. they are the optimists who stayed in germany at the rise of the nazis thinking, it will get better while pessimists left. 
i don't blame them, i used to think like them until i witnessed what occurred in europe with salmon rushdie and the many incidents where terrorists killed jews by hijacking aircraft or massacring an isreali olympic team here or there while the rest of the world was indifferent. 

anyone recall the arab oil embargo.

salmon rusdie!
you all know the story but what you may not know is what occurred in its wake. 
a committee called the islamic council was formed, it was an advisory body that would screen / filter everything published and promoted in the uk and europe that pertained to islam or muslims. it would approve or disapprove every publication from newspaper article to novel to tv series. and the threat of violence was always there, so weak governments capitulated. thus for decades the narrative was one sided. you never heard about what was really going down in isreal. many reporters were on the payroll, fabricating news and media because lets face it england and europe have always had an issue with jews and its establishment have always embraced the pan arab world. go even deeper and the british establishment was sympathetic towards hitler and would have appeased him if not for the working class english of which i am proudly one.

ironically all this does is give isreal a reason to exist.

people often say to me, why don't isreal offer land back. 
they did, they gave gaza back, ariel sharon (oft decribed by his haters as a war pig) used the army to drag their own people from their homes, they didn't have to do this but isreal wanted peace. it gave back land for peace and it never got it. in fact the land they gave back was fertile, had infrastructure and abundance. i saw the greenhouses stretching across the horizon. the first thing it's new occupants did was destroy everything and start firing missiles.  it's never been about isreal, it is always about jews. it's always been about jews and i'm sick of hearing people wank on about how anti zionism is not anti jew, of course it is you nutters. it's a brand new terminology, but it's most undeniably anti jew.

recently many jews have joined their left wing colleagues in support of the destruction of isreal, and it reminds me of the catholic church during the inquisition, you either convert of die. you either agree with us and join in the vilification of israel or you are a target. 
these useless idiots have no concept of socialist marxist and fascist history, for once isreal is done away with, they will be next. it's interesting to see through the lenses of history how the 'jews' are the canary in the coal mine when it comes to the decline of civilizations, they are the first to be persecuted, but after them it's usually their persecutors next in line. the lgbqt people will be next, then the christians, then the hindu, this has always been the goal of the islamic world. people may assume the koran is the single motivating force within islam, but they only have half the picture. the other half is the prophet mohammed whom is seen as the ideal man by his followers. if you really want to know what's going on, read about the life of mohammed. understand where it all comes from then you can understand where it is going.

i do stand with isreal because now is the time to take a side, and i choose life. that does not mean i feel nothing for the people of gaza, i do. they are victims of their own government and the lies that brainwashes them into killing jews. watch how the united nations funded schools in gaza and the west bank indoctrinate children to become martyrs for the cause, watch the tv shows that are designed like sesame street but promote the killing of jews. research 'pay for slay,' that's where your tax $ goes. the killing of jews, the eradication of israel. 

although i have little belief in judaism as a religion, there are parts i embrace just like all philosophies.
my issue is, i love isreal, what it became, how it evolved and what it stands for now. so i guess that puts me in the firing line and in the minority, but that's where i have always been, always.
so as much as it saddens me it re-enforces what i know. and also what jews now are beginning to see as reality.
i'm not safe anywhere except israel. that is not an exaggeration,  that is fact.

the more you lie about the truth the further away i move from you, and the idiots who fall for that occupation, apartheid nonsense only prove their overwhelming ignorance.  
for the last 30 years the un has waged a war upon isreal, as have it's aid agencies including amnesty which does the same with many countries especially in south america.  it used to be the extreme right but now it's the left and all those who have been influenced by academia, media and the reliance upon the majority, the majority of islamic immigration, voting blocks, civil obedience etc. 
the fear authorities have for the virus of islamism is outstanding, so much that it willing sacrifices it's minority jewish population for appeasement. that's the trade off, which is why i must choose a side on which to stand up with.

the attack upon the victims of october 7th who were visiting melbourne weeks after and the way hamas sympathisers got away with humiliating the families whom lost loved ones was disgraceful and embarrassing. along with 'gas the jews' outside the opera house, and the signature of australian journalists saying they need to view hamas on equal terms as isreal is just globally shameful. it's been noticed and it's already effecting tourism and trade internationally in australia as more and more decent people see australia for being a weak unprincipled country. 

in light of what is happening to the hostages, rapes, tortures and abuse of women and children and now even men the world still cannot condemn hamas. it is holocaust denial in real time. it's racism,  it's a fucking disgrace and you should be ashamed of what you do not do, what you do not speak out against and what you use as moral equivalency.  no one on either side deserves that sort of death. and those that demand proportionality will never get it from jews, because they do not rape, murder, burn, then send the video to victims families and celebrate the deaths of innocents. 
for many years the jews had no home, no army and no way to defend themselves and now they do. half the planet hate that.

i said a few years ago, there is a spiritual battle manifesting in this plane of existence, be prepared, choose a side because you cannot just observe without effecting the result. and here we are, harvard and ivy league professors, administrators all think it's okay to call for genocide of jews and their defence is abysmal, in fact i am embarrassed for them. did you see them before congress?

every weekend there are thousands of protesters demanding a ceasefire, knowing fully well a ceasefire gives hamas respite, gives them a chance to attack isreal again as they have promised. this is the logic of morons. the people inside gaza are just as much victims as isreal, they just don't know this yet because of the mass brainwashing they get as kids and the fear hamas instill in the gazan population. what amazes me, yet is another brutal fact is how europe and america support hamas. 
while i don't want to i can honestly say europes treatment of jews and isreal only proves it still is a nazi regime, although it is good to see geert win the dutch elections, and just like islam embraced hitler, the legacy of the holocaust is paid and funded by europe who loathe isreal's success, sovereignty and survival, it was never in their plan when they gave jews a state. from day one,  europe really though the arab nations would destroy isreal and they can wipe their hands of the jewish problem. the jews and isreal have always been the canary. the litmus test, the gauge by which people will be judged. that's why it has a destiny. that's what holds the country, the people together. and that in reflection is true about the jews, they do collectively, more than ever feel like they have a destiny.

in isreal the left wing were murdered by the people they supported, the people they helped and advocated for. not just murdered, let's be honest, they were butchered and university professors and students support the people who put babies in ovens in front of their parents, who rape dead women and men, who mutilate and torture children and take them hostage.
yeah that's the difference between me and you. 
i won't be celebrating the death of my enemy. 

in wars like this i am drawn to the gita, the incredible wisdom krishna imparts upon arjuna as arjuna doubts the righteousness of his battle with his uncle the night before the war. 
krisha says, 'they are already dead.'
it took me a long time to work out what that meant. now i know, but it gives me no pleasure. 

to be honest all i think about lately is how i wish i could be in tel aviv, on a rooftop with a bunch of weird misfits smoking weed, watching iron dome as we chat about philosophy or politics, or watch a band in mikes bar. anyone who has never been to tel aviv is missing out. the most progressive city i have ever seen, the wildest and most intelligent, a mix between berlin and tokyo but with a middle eastern twinge. a seething mass of multiculturalism, harmony and beauty all disguised as chaos. jerusalem is similar but jerusalem has a history, a serious past where ancient architecture meets the modern where an old ruin has been transformed into something projecting past and future in co existence. it's also filled with ugly trinkets and wares, the market sellers have not changed since the time of jesus and that's one thing even i don't like, they never learnt. however that's a small part of a big wide city, a city that is multi dimensional, it goes in all directions like a chaos sphere.
but my heart is somewhere in the golan, with my cousin, the tantric goddess. we smoke weed, take mescal, read the tarot cards of the local arabs, we drink black coffee and drive into the most amazing landscape i have ever seen along a perfect road that parallels the lake upon which jesus walked. 
i know the gaza strip, i been there, it's not an open air jail. it's far from a concentration camp. it certainty is nowhere as wonderful as it should be thanks to corrupt govts, but it's got beautiful beaches, hotels and resorts. it is densely populated for sure but part of the islamic fascist doctrine is to overwhelm with numbers, it's been very successful for them.  

yeah, i will stand up and be proud of isreal with all it's faults for being one of the most interesting countries on earth.

on the same day as the attack, at the same moment the peace festival was assaulted by hang gliding maniacs i was rushed to hospital for a month.