apparently new laws fresh from europe about cookies have been passed and i am expected to do something with it. i am not sure what they are going on about but if you want to send me cookies you are welcome to.
i miss my friends olga and val, managed to catch up with them last week. it was a kooky evening, lot of laughs. the rest of life involves working, it's been very demanding. pressure is on to complete a course and my motivation is so very low, i just cannot find the motivation to engage although i wrote a very honest letter to them. no response yet and i am certain they will ignore me or sack me. 
i feel strange, outta whack with everything, outta synch with the world. i feel as if everything is held together with a piece of string, a toilet roll and a strip of sellotape. 
it's very strange.
yet something calls me, is drawing closer to me. i have family heading this way, nepalese and canadian, and  am glad off this. i feel like i need family for a while. 
also, my book is still pulsing along, although i am beset by an unease at my writing style  it's very inconstant a i'm attempting to find the voice within this novel. there are two, i almost have one but the other requires some consideration. so i am considering.
also there are a couple of 'bits' that require adjustments. it's coming along but i need more time away from work which is getting in the way.
home life is okay, gardens look good, rain tonight yay! 
the first day of winter was freezing, i just went to bed as soon as the sun sunk. early to rise.
i watched a show on video called 'tin star' with tim roth in the lead, it was a really engaging but brutal story, and i was in awe of  everything about it. i've always liked tim roth, he's a risky guy with his roles. here he plays a great character you love and then gradually hate. the cinematography is spectacular, and it has an excellent soundtrack. the story itself is similar to the techniques of the coen brothers and therefore worth watching just to see if i am right.