sleepy, very tired, hunkered down, attempting to keep warm in a very cold house, the cold has been my enemy all my life, i really am solar powered, i spend my morning with the high priestess and we talk about a warp in the fabric of our consciousness but it's okay, i'm pretty much in her heart so it don't matter, we discuss our fork in the road, david ikce, who i just don't get as he spreads his fear, i don't know, i just know, and i trust that feeling. so that's a strange place to draw a line but it's not a real one, just a line in our difference, we can fix it, talking and communication, i'm really bad a talking, much prefer just writing, letting it flow from my heart and see where it falls and because she's cool it's all cool, fuck it's great david icke can say what he want's and anyone can believe him, there's no laws, but why doesn't he feel right, all that lizard stuff and hate, he just seems full of himself and full of hate. (PLEASE EXCUSE ANY STRANGE SPELLINGS IN MY BLOGS RECENTLY IT'S MY COMPUTER STUCK ON SOME KINDA AUTO SPELL PROGRAM THAT I CAN'T CHANGE) so we chat about this and we chat about that and i find out she's not been well, she's been really sick and i want her to know that i love her and she will be okay because we will always be friends and i'm so glad that we are friends, she's very humble and fucking magnificent.
we discussed fear, mine are terrorists at the moment, i have a strange fear about it and fucking how i'm blaming everything, all these stupid organisations and conspiracies, they are all a sham, part of the fear, the barrier that keeps me trapped and enslaved by something i seem to be creating, like a bad energy, banish bad energy. i banish you. begone.
i need to retreat into myself now.