Okay lets see where we are, i did the Ayahuscia ceromony again, this time drank three brews, the potency was a lot less intense than last time, i think there were a few novices in the group, Darpan was there to lead us through with his music and songs. No real visions but some intresting revelations,
I listened to the plant guide me through my programming and my ideology, and eventually i came to my feelings about israel. i realised that one one level the jews have only one way to deal with the issue. They need to leave. They need to relinquish everything, homes and land and once more go out into the wilderness. It came to me that the jews have one ideal / belief / that remains consistant with them, its the idea of God. In the old testament one of the strories that always made me question God was the story of Abraham and Issac, i was always thinking, what kind of God puts some one through a test of faith like that. Then i realised that now in contempory isreal the jewish people are being tested about their faith. Sure we can head down the path to armigedion but we can also save the planet by leaving everything and moving else where.Israel is a state of mind, we had it 2000 years ago, we lost it, over and over, but we survived, We need to give the land to the arabs, we need to say, here is the land, you are prepared to destroy life for, we value life more than land, have it, see if possessing it makes you any less at peace with yourself.
It was a startling idea, i know that its highly unlikely, i mean would you give up your home, or would you fight. I still don't know what the answer is, but i was left shaken by the idea.
Another revelation is the current war i am having with the lady below me, who is some what selfish and inconsiderate, she has made things quite difficult for me, and i have not responded well, in fact i have really been quite vicious. So i want to rectify this some how, maybe i'll invite her kids over for breakfast. Ice cream.
Another isssue that came up was meredith, my partner in adalaide, she's kinda perfect and as i thought about her i was filled with a nice warm squishy feeling. (Above the waist)
Then there were people in my life that i wanted to acknowledge.
Finally i was overwhelmed with a need to see pansy. I don't think i ever felt closer to him than last night.
Later afterwards at about 4.30am i spoke to a guy called pedro, a really nice man from bondi, i needed the human connection and was glad to have shared it with him. He was telling me about his girlfreind and how in love they were, he spoke about his work as a councillor and we swapped stories working with homelessness and drug addiction experiences. In the conversation i mentioned an obscure book by wade davis which he had actully read.
Amazing.