time out time passes fades and melts days and nights blend into some kind of weird backdrop, my head sometimes aches and sometimes seems clear, my heart sometimes heavy and sometimes light, all is still now.
i read the power of now, it took me quite some time and effort, but i know its a book that speaks volumes to me, and if now is not a good time to read it then i don't know when is. actually reminding myself is healing, i feel like i am sending out a lifeline to myself, something to hold on to, something true.
agent stone has proven once again to be an amazing friend, something i can never forget or diminish.
my anti deppressants are stabalizing me, i can feel them surge through my blood and brain, seritonin levels kicking over a bit higher, these drug companies know how to get ya reeled in, i hate the fact i am on them, its depressing, but right now i'm looking for all the support i can get lest i fall into an abyss.
1 comment:
do not adjust your set. it is reality that is malfunctioning.
this is not a test.
very interesting stuff captain.
i like the igod idea. fallible gods are great. the whole omnipotent god things is so recent its still cheesy. funny old greek and chinese gods are much more entertaining. omni^gods get boring with the whole perfect thing. perfect wankers are dull at parties - imagine having to live with a perfect god too.
your brain sounds interesting too. i suppose when learning to juggle realities you must occasionally drop a ball. such a shame tho that western medicine only has negative terms for describing alternative brain functions.
rewire carefully and with a sense of humour.
when your playing with as many neurons/synapses as there are stars in the universe (playing god basicly) its a shame to get too serious.
seems youve found a hole or two; black holes thats all. go check out the other side while you have the chance.
as bucky fuller said;
the mind is the biggest thing in existence, the only thing big enough to fit the universe into.
Post a Comment