i have been selected along with about 20 others to participate in a test. each of us will prepare a meal, from which a certain man will come and taste a sample and then tell us from that taste what life has promised us.
we are taken into a strange medieval almost fantasy environment, i feel like i am in a a sony playstation game, but it’s real. there is castles, rolling hills, dragons, ravens and medieval wenches and knights who are part of this landscape, we are all separated and told we have a certain time to prepare the meal, then we have to present it to the man who awaits at the centre of the maze.
i look at the maze, it is massive, it has a huge entrance and operates on many levels, and we are told has many dangers.
i’m uncertain how or what i prepare, it’s something i take care about but have no details, i carry it into the maze. along the way there are many challenges none are revealed in my dream, but i have an idea that it took quite an effort to get there, it was dangerous, but when i finally reach the centre i am confronted by a huge gate and a view of a tournament area that has various split levels and stairs. in the distance i can see a robed man wandering around a large table, he must be this man who tells us what life has promised us. he moves from table to table. i race towards him, just as i get to a long passage way that leads directly towards him a murder of ravens attack me, and the meal i prepared falls to the ground ruined. i wave my arms around trying to get the birds away, then a dragon appears and the birds fly away, i am running back into the maze, carefully attempting to remember my directions so i can get back. i double back on myself, this time on a different level, lower level, i realize that i can still be part of this game as all i need to do is offer a ‘taste.’ so climbing back to the spillage i grab a golden spoon and scoop up whatever it is i have prepared. then i race back.
the tasting is almost finished, i seem to be running towards the final table, but again i never get there, however whatever obstacle stops me (i think it’s some nasty knights) i still have my sample on my spoon. i pick myself up and see the man in the distance, he is finished tasting the food, the contestants all look very sad and unhappy, i wonder if it is worth knowing what life has promised but decide that i should try my very best. i grab the spoon and attempt to head the man off before he reaches the large gates he is walking towards, i can approach form the other direction. i run, very fast. it takes a few minites but i get to the gates and burst through.
below me the man stands stopped in his tracks at the figure who is approaching, he looks at me and smiles. i hold my spoon with it’s morsel of food in it with extended arm, i am walking towards him, i have beaten the clock but i throw the food to one side. his entourage all frozen in shock, time slows down and everything plays out in synchronistic detail, his jean luc pichard (patrick stewart) face, wise and gentle, the spark in his eyes, the soft voice but yet loud and clear. we both say at exactly the same time, ‘life has promised us nothing.’
he walks up to me and hugs me. he whispers in my ears with that jean luc picard kind of shakespearian gravity, ‘i love you like a brother because....’
and then i wake up.

i am trying to understand what this dream means, i don’t really know, there are so many levels to it. so many ways to interpret it. and what was he going to say, what words did i not hear, and should i know what they are.

‘and life promises us nothing.’ this is so very true, another great truth.
when i think about my battles with free will and destiny competing over my life i have understood through the years there are times when you have to recognise destiny and surrender to it, and there are times when you have to develop your will. magick is all about developing and building a relationship with your will and the engagement of it in the world. but this is a terrifying and dangerous process, that’s why the magickians path is fraught with complexities and strict guidelines, it is a maze in itself and the dragons are real.
so eventually you reach a strange conclusion, when you have done the great work, destiny and free will are the same.


‘i love you like a brother because....’ do i need the completed statement? is love enough. yeah i think it is.