id like to wander the globe, certainly asia, the far east, maybe an island place with coconuts and cool drinks, just swim in small waves, bodysurf and sleep under a tree in a hammock with some good music a few books and some great company. get to the point where i can just relax and laugh. laughter has to be the answer to all the strange human stuff, financial systems and banking, governments that just come running to a standstill cos some idiot has a grudge against another idiot, polluting and radiating oceans and all life with some weird energy byproduct, killing innocents and living in fear of your neighbour cos they worship differently, ain't it the same god?
he's a loving kind god with a vengeful streak, he's a father figure, a son, a spaghetti monster a blue skinned vishnu a galactic spore cloud, who the hell cares what the details are, he says the same thing over and over, be cool to my creations.
love your enemy, fuck i love that line, how hard is that one? 
god gave us lovely spirulina and caco, coconuts and bok choy, he gave us honey and milk and a variety of seasonal fruits that are rich and diverse and tasty. 
he's a provider, our father, but don't fuck him over or he'll send ya a plague or kill your first borne or something horrid, that's what they say. i think he's okay in a way, you know as long as you follow his rules. 
however to know that you have to really break them. the universe knows this, it teaches with some karma thrown at you, here the mind has to work it out on it's own in it's own way, the brain can't, it's trapped in time only seeing events in causality. you gotta not see causality. that would be like looking at sheet music. you gotta hear the symphony, the song, the music and then decide, are you really free to act as though you own the universe, or are you okay about accepting it's shared. are you willing to push the limits, the universe wants that, it says to me, 'push mission, crack the codes, fuck with the mix all you want but ultimately there's only one point you can get to, acceptance that there is a design and a designer.'
i pushed, broke the rules, i say break all codes, especially break your own codes, but listen to the symphony when you do this, it gets outta whack, drama unfolds, street hassle, sorrow and pain quickly on it's heels. 
follow the music with your open heart, join in, contribute creatively and that jealous god or sexy jesus or whatever you pay homage to will play you a great song, and you can be free within it. 
i really want to be a vegan, i feel very much a pull in this direction these days but it's a difficult path for me, i like honey, eggs and i wear cotton t shirts and leather shoes so i can't really commit, but i feel saddened by this contradiction within myself, disappointed.
my friend lilly needs a place to stay so she is here, i made up a sort of area for her, orientated her to liberteria, she knows i don't use electric lights, she makes me a kale detox drink, it tastes better than i anticipated. i don't like people staying with me, i can't function well but i guess i'm happy to help if a friend is in crisis and i can offer a safe place, i think it may be for a few weeks so i will have to learn how to manage a cohabitant. at least she can teach me some yoga moves and to improve my lazy eating habits, ice cream and chocolate out the window, raw juice and fresh salads rule libetaria.