the weekend is almost gone, i've been everywhere this weekend, from a short drive into newtown to see a friend who needed a friend and then i hang out with pansy for a while, then i go to the markets, (tim i thought of you my friend, our sojourns through the markets as you spoke to everyone about their products, digging that reality, especially the meat people who came across to me as being far to happy, one being a girl who smiled at me and threw her arms up in joy and i tell you old friend just for a moment i was conflicted, anyway's i miss you tim), there was a train journey to the mountains for a special xmas in july feast extravagance with my friend lilly the mermaid, i told a group of girls i'd never met before my internet horror dating story and heard a better one, and i must say, i enjoyed everyone at that event, our hosts neil and janet need a special mention here as they are magnificent. neil a brilliant painter and janet a magickian amongst the kitchens.
i wandered into neils studio looking for some one smoking a spliff but it looked as though i'd just missed the bongs when i wandered in and saw neil and his buddy sitting in front of a magnificent landscape neil had painted, he's getting energy of places, he's very good. and janet who is unfreaking believeable, i've known janet since our children were born, i met her in pre natal classes, can ya believe it, she and lilly and i are all connected up, it's kinda like a tribe. the space is good, it's nurturing and free and fucking funny, filled with good people, i met a chap with no teeth whom was a plant man, he was a genius and is running for the council, he will win, the guy grows things and knows his stuff, he's was like a wild man, big wild man beard, eyes all excitable and filled with fire and water, i liked that way he just always seemed to watch nature, learn from nature, yeah that's a really good way to spend your life, i reckon, although i am the first to admit i'd be terrible, it may actually be the best thing a man can do. imagine growing plants and trees, my friend evan does that, he's just got everything now, perfect, i am really happy for him, he has a future as a dad, what a great journey that is. it's filled with hope and evan said to me, hope is what i need. 
he's probably right, i'm lacking in hope but with my time machine mind i can regain it, and i did, because the weekend was spent with my friends, one of whom explained to me, hope is a christian term, the greeks never had it, they saw it as a weakness, which is interesting as greece succumbed to christ's message.
evan and i skim the usual topics, we enjoy a chat with a beautiful english waitress whom has a autistic streak and sees numbers as colours, she's a kate moss double only much more sexier, and she reads me like a book as she glimpses my lsd mind.
i head home for some book time, reading a large chunk of iain banks, 'the hydrogen sonata' and then watch a dvd called stargate universe which although reluctant to watch actually captivated me by getting better and better and more complex and clever, i noticed one of the consultants was john scalzi who writes a damm fine novel himself. the themes stargate universe explores are brilliant especially the episode on the alien bug that attaches itself to the crew and causes hallucinations based around emotional responses, but also the clever characterisations, the concept of the communication stones, the stargate drive itself and the idea of their space craft built by ancients who created the star gates, the destiny has, a destiny.
this was a whole lot better than the other star gate spin offs, written for adults, and with a class actor like robert carlyle, you can't really fail.
finally i speak to my dad, i miss him heaps, i wanna see him soon, maybe go visit london, see jake, a trip to my friends tez and jean in brighton, i'd like to see everyone, somethings changed in me, i feel more positive about the negative. it's not hope, but it's close, at least it's not despair, that's something i rather not have to deal with.
the weather has been perfect, very warm, sunshine, like a spring, that would have played a huge role in my emotional state, being a seasonal affected disorder sufferer, i'm relatively quite positive at the moment. i would have liked to go and see sk dj down at kx but i just found myself feeling slightly exhausted and in need of a long sleep.