krishna krishna, how i love your colour, radiating purity and clarity, like a foxy lady of the night giving it away for free, sit be still, come talk with me.

not holy, unsaid or worthy words, not unforgivable memetic schemes, not of the brain or mind and all its myriad schemes, no map to chart territory, or heartfelt emotional plea, here lies ambidextrous logics twin, the ghostly cloak of intuition.

halfway through don webbs, 'destroying old gods' i had to skip the first half written by some weird satanist whom i couldn't understand, the book is really an interpretation of old crowelys book of the law, a completely strangely inaccessible book as far as i am concerned. he should have written it in plain english but his woman was channelling some alien and i guess in the olde days all that mumbo jumbo must have sounded sweet.

however when don webb starts explaining it, things start to fall into place, i like his understanding of it. 

i like the definitions of white and black magick, much more sensible than the old moral ones. webb says, white magick is union with the universe, merging and harmonising the magickians will with the universes, which i guess is mysticism. black magick is separating, the magickian is the universe and by transforming their will they effect change on the external universe.

to me both are identical. okay i'm not an expert but i have studied and practiced these ideas and intuitively  know that in order to be true i must put them to the test and repeat the experiment so that results are consistent. that's the scientific method. one cannot replicate the experiments exactly the same as states of mind play a large part in the process of getting desired results but i believe the magickian has to surrender to the universe in order to change it, it's not about will it's about respect. this can be seen and observed in shamanic plant medicine. unless you respect the plant spirit, the plant spirit cannot be effective in assisting you. a bit like prayer, it's not a demand.

the practice of praying is a process, it takes a while to dissolve the ego state to a point it no longer exists, by this point it no longer seeks a wish fulfilment. however the universe being intelligent, and open to receive and intervene may do this if the conditions are right. the will gets in the way, which is why chaos magickians know not to expect a result. the expectation is the problem, it sabotages a result by it's very nature, which is why training is required. 
mental training takes years, and it starts with the premise, 'try not to think of an elephant!'

those satanist cats are just frightened that there may be intelligences within the universe that are more powerful influential smarter and wiser than them. while i admire their pursuit of an alternative creative energy, i can't begin to understand why they fear ego loss, ultimately they have to die like every other life form, so why not deal with it now.

i do like their gothic fashions though, black and silver work for me.