an uncertainty principle followed me home, it's enveloped me, not sure what to do but i know the surf will help, drove down to terrible beach but it looked and felt wrong so i grabbed a coffee and returned home crashed out for a few hours. outside the rain fell, my fern had sprouted two new fronds, they were blowing wildly in the wind. i was certain i had murdered that tree but it appears to have regenerated itself. the garden looks green, a bit wild, every time i look at it i see more work. 
on the radio they have been talking a lot about snakes, i heard an interview with a central coast snake catcher whom said he catches about 50 a month. in the local paper they have a few warnings about snakes, and some photos of people whom have had encounters. 
i'm not so scared of snakes, i seen a few but they just slithered away. they can move fast and one even moved sideways in a strange motion that i found mesmerizing. i contemplate having a pet python, my place would suit it well but i figure i'd have to feed it live animals which i would find very difficult although it could feast on all the wild critters that hang out outside. in one part of my mind i have this vision of a snake hanging down from the ceiling fan but the idea is rejected quickly by my much smaller rational brain. 
i am about to start reading the final book of the 'left hand of god' trilogy, it's called, 'the beating of his wings.' 
i thought i should read the first and second book again for continuity, i recall most of the story but there's a sub plot i completely forget and these novels won't take long to read but when i start looking for them i can't see them at all. i stumble around the piles of books scanning like an library android, there are so many books in here but i have a system. it's chaos to the observer but for me it works, only it didn't. three scans later and i still can't find the first and second novels. it's highly likely they may have been given away in my big cull, i was very ruthless which was really difficult for me, i get attached to books but that cull was executed with such savagery i'm still in denial.