for some reason i have developed an attitude, it's some sort of defence mechanism, it will pass soon and i will return to my centre, if it hangs around much longer i may just have to surf it out. i don't like when i have an attitude but often other people like attitude, in public life they gravitate towards people with attitude. i have attitudes, they are ever shifting, ever changing but they always dance around some sort of spiritual attainment or liberation, this one is just defending part of my ego that got punched and worked up the other day when i felt wildly out of control and unsafe, it will recede as i come back to safety. 
i am a libertarian in essence. 
everyone is on their own trip and should be free to follow their vision providing it does not intercede with anyone else's in a destructive way.