not enough time, it's weird when you get to that point. time being the resource we all value as opposed to money. i wish i could give 'time' like you donate money, i guess there's transplants and organ donations but that kinda goes against what i'm talking about here. i'm talking about units of time. say ten people all donated a year to someone they loved so that person gets an extra 10 years. 

i know this could only work in natural life spans not including acts of god, fatal accidents but it could work as acts of love or compassion. look i need my years, i'm no saint but for people you really care about, it would be easy for me. i've lived a hundred lives, all there is for me left is to write about them. but some people you need in your life, some people are like air, water or food. i'd give them a year without thinking to hard about it. i guess quality of life comes into play as well. i don't want to give a year to someone and prolong their suffering, but i would if they could have a good quality life free from pain. i figure after 80 years old people could offer a younger person undergoing some sort of terminal illness a year. i'm 61 but i'd happily live to 79 rather than 80 if it meant an extra year for someone i love. 

i guess it's easy to write this but harder to do. i will let you know at 79. i don't know, i've given money to people, blood even. i've given time as well but not in a pact equation like:

(a)minus 1 year = (b)plus 1 year

the thing about it all is helplessness, i feel inadequate, i feel god is inadequate yet i know that not to be true. the cosmic vision knows it all makes sense but i can't see it. i just see my friend suffering and it makes me sad.