mwp and the mood maidens played their last gig last night at the old hopetown hotel, so i went down to catch them, along with some moon maidens of me own, beautiful simone me oldest friend in australia, the only person who i remained in contact with me from my divorce, origionally the ex's friend, had to do a bit of careful dipolmacy over the years and i have to respect her position, but after many years we are still friends and it was time to take her out and expose her to the strange beauty that has become my life, emilie my maifestation of french extremity, the independant, warrior woman, conquerer of two elements, shamanic essence emerging, all that potential in a overwhelming bundle of passion and lust, emilie where's the love baby, i just want the love?
And last but not least the georgous and divine Trina from the mountains that ya got question why on earth they should call blue with her living there, yeah trina possibly the most amazing artist i know, whom also acts as my creative consultant and embodies enough love to run a small planet with, packed in a neat energy of joy. so yeah we're down in hope town listening to awesome mwp music, and it's all good.
emilie is giving me a list of reasons why i should marry her, she's drawn up the +s and the -s and they are pretty persuasive exept for the distinct lack of love, it's not a bad deal. Me on the other hand, can't travel down that road, it's the Jean Paul Satre syndrome, i'd be permanantly trapped in an existential nightmare, falling in love with some one that would attempt at every oppurtunity to subvert the harmony i have found, she is the wind seeker whereas the wind always comes to me. In a parrallel universe we are married, we fell in love and have a perfect relationship build on those exteme challenges, the ultimate ones that only the very strong can survive or even attempt to contemplate, trust, loyalty, friendhip and love. cliques yeah of course they are, the romance industry fucked it up, like all industry does but in essense, the fairytails are filled with fear, danger and challenge. Its one thing to jump from an aircraft, it's another to taste the speed of life, but baby, you want to be challenged take the ultimate ride. It's high velocity, it's only the really brave that can take this roller coaster, this wild stallion and tame it, the torrid currents of love, no youthful passion stands a chance against it, no simple sex or hormone activity can regenerate this type of commitment, it's love and like the man said, love is sacrifice. Never mind being burnt at the stake for your beliefs, never mind a little crucifiction, never mind a few tears and a busted heart, these are all childrens play compared to a marrage, a pact made with the universal forces, the essensse of the jewish belief is god is seperated from his partner, his partner is female in essensse, splintered in trillions of fragments within creation, every creature that has life is in essensse gods partner and the whole reason for existance is to reunite god with his partner through love. yeah thats what being jewish is. most jewish people don't even know that unless they are kabbalists, most jews don't even believe in god. gods not an old man, he ain't some guy demanding worship and donations, he ain't intrested in prayer and temples, the church he gave us was not build with human hands, there was no design other than an act of love, we are gods wife, we are seperated from him through time and space, we are lost without completion, and loving one another is the key. god wants us to have sex, he wants us to have sex with love, its the essensse of jewish faith, the rest is just ritual and tradition. love and sex baby, dangerous themes to inject into any religious belief or spiritual tradition, let alone our personal lives. Wanna take that ride?
Yeah so although i have no intrest in religious beliefs and change them like the wind, thats the construct of love i work with when i think marriage, its not conventional but it seperates marriage from the motions, of everyday human experience. You are an agent of the universe baby. You got a mission. Don't forget what it is, you're spirit knows it. You know it. It's no extreeme sport, it's extreeme life. Push it to the limit, take it to the end of the road and threshold, love is fucking beautiful and it's your mission should you choose to accept it.

Oh but what about sex?
Yeah i hear ya asking, out there, little pheremones going nuts, outta control, hardwired into human experience is the sex trip. Let me make it clear, sex is fucking brilliant, it should be embraced as a journey, explored as a landscape, sex is the territory we all are programmed into, hetro, home, bi, try get as much as you can until you're ready for the next level, it's the wild stallion we can't tame, it's has its own nature and it's a wild one. Sex often confused with love but it is entwined for sex is the catalyst, it's the instinctive urge to reproduce, driven by pleasure and hedonistic pursuits. A chemical trick, the dna knows how to steer it's prime directive, i mean how many people do you know bring conciousness into sex?
In tantra sex is a spiritual pursuit, one should ideally be able to have sex with whom ever is present, authentic tantra schools designate partners randomly, there is no western concepts of being bound to one person, because tantra is a process, it is a process towards liberation and the idea of being bound to one person is considered entrapment of the mind, we cannot be bound to one person for ever, but we can bring a loving process into our sexual lives that embodies the idea of commitment.
The idea of taming the sex instinct is essential in other practices, daoism, for example encourages sexual yoga but not ejaculation for men, it's is ejaculation control that is the disipline. In your spiritual supermarket, disipline is the key to liberation, walk in and don't buy anything, that's the lesson. Martial arts will tell ya the same thing, you know the secret of martial arts? Don't use it.
Disipline over the sex drive is very important if one is contemplating a relationship with ones universe, becuase it is ultimatley disipline over the self and this is part of your personal eveolution.

Sexual Perversions and Aborrations (excluding the obvious ones) - It's your experience, you're the programmer, take responsibility for it but remember with out love you're not doing it for anything but your own selfish needs, the cosmos deems you insignificant.
Ultimatly sex is information, it's raw data, uncorrupted and fresh, it's energy in a nice little experience that should leave ya smiling, don't engage if your going to feel empty or used, becuase then you are not actually processing the data, you're on some wierd 'self esteeme trip' and the pattern is repeating itself because you don't get it.

When Prof. Leary and i ran 'deepsex' we worked with a group of people who were all middle aged, middle class, new age junkies who couldn't hack the sex aspect of their lives, they had no way to plug into the information we were giving becuase they could not even say the words, 'FUCK, ANAL, ORGASM' in a sexual context. How ya going to update your sexual experience if you can't talk about it?
We gave these people weekly exersises, we offerred them the oppurtunity to take their sex lives into the quantum level and they found changing their diets to hard. How ya going to know love if you can't know sex, and by know i mean drive it, be the piolet, learn to fly.

Okay. What's happening, start of talking about my nights out with my friends and get sucked into a long rave about love and sex.