last sunday i took a serious blow to the head, it sent me reeling into that high level pain area along with loss of awareness, disorientation and some kinda weird liquid escaping from the top of my head that was not blood but some transparent fluid. it was outrageously painful, my crown swelled up and the only thing that seemed to ease the pain was a packet of frozen vegetables. several times i thought i should go to hospital but i had work, i can't afford not to work and my positive thinking made a valiant effort to overcome but the pain has not gone and i fear it may be bleeding on the brain or severe bruising so i have to take myself to hospital again. just before i leave i attempt to refill my rosette box of medication for the week and realise the chemist has given me the wrong meds, so this needs to be fixed which takes a day and a half. so today after finally sorting out the mistake i am about to go to hospital and have my brain looked at. head injuries seem to be my thing, i've had a severe brain injury to the frontal lobe which changed my life completely once, a prerequisite to ayahuscia it appears but now this is on my crown so we will see what happens. i just hope i live a little longer as I'm writing again and really feel good about that. 

so the bizarre thing is when i drive myself to the hospital there is nowhere to park, i drive around for an hour, and there is nothing. no space anywhere. so it's back home for me, back home and hope i wake up in in the morning.