lot of plates in the air, spinning around me, somethings gotta crash i can't keep up with it all, but they just keep turning, wobbling and rotating like planets in space. 
one day when i'm free from constraints, somewhere down the time line i'll write about my work in great detail, the world i hardly ever mention, some say it's the real world, i dunno, i function in it but it don't seem real to me, just human dramas, real to the players i know but to me who navigates around their complex issues and personalities i become less and less interested in humanity's dramas, a strange species endlessly repeating their mistakes and folly. 
the church dvd and double cd pack arrived this morning, i'm waiting for dusk then i'll light some candles, smoke and listen.