well the specialist didn't have good news for me, and it looks like i may have to return to hospital for some more weird procedures and experimentation early next year. this came as a blow to me, i was kinda hoping i could put it all behind me, and move forwards. i can't really move anywhere now.

still time pushes on, events pivot, the background changes colour but the foreground is the same. conclusions become beginnings, it's always the way, a never ending story because it is one big long story of cycles and loops. i am indeed a strange loop. but i move ever forwards. the knight of nights.

in the mid east the same old situation, the west getting everything inverted as it tells isreal to stop the war, ceasefire now! all that sounds good in theory but they are telling the wrong side, if they want to stop the war they should tell hamas to release hostages, they should ask why hamas broke the last ceasefire or let israel finish what it must do. there's agendas at play, only those with x ray vision can see it. it's been like that for many many decades but on it goes.

i wake up super early, go through my morning rituals. i even manage to do some gardening at 6am. it's very overcast, grey and heavy skies threaten storms. i batten down the hatches,  make sure my supplies are stocked before deluge falls. it's weirdly humid, sweat beads form as soon as i emerge from the shower. a dog barks, everything feels very ominous as if the sun is about to flare.

good news is i can start 'eros zeta' today. yay!

i'm about to see the specialist, maybe i can make a full recovery like last time, it's not impossible. in the meantime my love life is beginning to look interesting. i feel ready so i guess the cosmos is sending me some applicants. 
my best friend died having sex with a brazilian stripper just as they were going to go out for dinner, it always seemed like the best way to go. the weather has been humid and bright, i've been waking up at dawn and catching waves, despite average surf one wave in every hundred makes it worthwhile. i ride that baby in zen style, the solar system imploding in my brain. everything happening all at once, it's incredible. then there's the house, i throw myself into some hardcore domestics. jakob helps clear two rooms, i still have about 300 books to sell, next market day. i've decided to cut price down to $5 each. come on, these are quality life changing novels, you will thank me for them later.
i've had to slow down at work, i can't do everything so i'm delegating. it's good, i gotta remember i'm an old man not a teenager.  a slimmer one too. all that hospital food and i dropped dramatically. i just couldn't eat that junk. 
must admit during this period where half the population of earth wants to kill me and mine i am enjoying watching 'the expanse' again. it's a great series if you like science fiction with a political twist. i also love watching the un ambassador to isreal give his speeches to the assembly, he's so good. it's about time someone told those bastards how useless they are.
i've been reading a fair amount as well but nothing spectacular, i'm about to read 'eros zeta and the hypnogogue.' 
i'll post a review soon. 

i'm doing laundry today, heaps off it. it's taking over the whole day spilling into my down time but it feels good getting it done. there's rain on the way so i hope it all drys out by dusk.

the difference between me and you is simple. when a bunch of people behead and murder babies, children, mothers and fathers, people dancing at a 'peace' rave, which the attackers video and then kidnap rape and torture women, kids and grannies leaving a trail of butchery behind for their followers to rejoice in, i don't go out on the streets and celebrate. i don't wave a flag or shout out to my god, what a great day it is, or how happy i am. 
yeah i am jewish by birth, i have very little interest in the religion but having been and lived in israel many times over the years i know what an exceptional country it really is, why amazing people choose to live there, no matter what their religion, or ethnicity. i worked with many palestinians who love isreal because they are free to be who they want to be without the threat of being thrown of a rooftop or dragged bound and chain by a motorbike because of their sexuality or desire to be free from authoritarian control. despite the lies there is no apathid for any israeli citizen.

i picked olives in an orchard with palestinians who loved isreal, loved their lives and laughed with me in the sun as brothers. many isrealis are married to palestinians, but you would never read that in the guardian or the abc.

jewish isreali children are not indoctrinated from birth to hate their enemy, quite the opposite.
the biggest mistake most people make is to equate the issue of thinking israel is separate from judaism. it is not. the israelis are not murdered because they are israelis, they are murdered because they are jews. 

it's very obvious to any astute political thinker, it's nothing to do with land.
evidence of this is global as attacks upon jews before the state of isreal and the way it has been minimized after the state of isreal was declared. murders and attacks occur everywhere in europe towards jews. it's just not reported. just like the pakistani grooming gangs are not reported or the rape culture in sweden was never reported. it's often covered up, it's usually dismissed for a number of reasons. first being the amount of islamic immigration into western democracies that most politicians have to supplicate. 

they vote and people want their vote. 

politicians don't have principles anymore, there are no great leaders, just dependents. dependent upon the vote.

another reason is the amount of pure hatred, jealously and resentment most people have towards jews. left and right side of politics, they hate jews and these days it's unfashionable to attack a minority so they attack israel which ironically is a minority.  a single secular jewish state in an ocean of muslim ones. 

and for all you anti- white colonial haters out there isreal is not 'white.' 

commentary like thinking it's comprised of europians is just dumb, and very obviously ignorant.

i am a good example of that. jews are multi ethnic, including asian and african.

so, a peace rave huh, i mean that's liberation!

citizens from all over the planet, dancing for peace. and you dance on the streets because you see it as a 'celebration' they were gunned down, beheaded brutally raped and kidnapped.

you don't want to believe it, its a conspiracy, where's the proof you scream. and after having the proof you still won't believe it because your sickness is deranged and pathological.

i've been in isreal at war, when isreal defends itself its citizens are very solemn and, all, yes all, feel tragically for the people in gaza. i know this because i have seen it and felt it myself so for me it is real. i respect the sanctity the jews have for life itself despite what the media and harvard promotes. the media is a self perpetuating hate machine, it needs conflict, chaos and war. it needs division, just like our masters. and both gaza and isreal are puppets manipulated by a deep deeper state that really pulls the strings of everyone, especially now as conflict, war, fear is exactly what distracts us from the criminal activities of our own governments. the ones that support isreal at the same time they fund iran. the ones that promote peace are the ones that make war. 
unlike you. i do stand with isreal, neither because i am perceived as jewish but because i understand antisemitism and those that perpetrate it.
thousands of pro hamas people were firing flares at an opera house that was  lit up in blue and white light, in a token-like gesture.  no 'star of david' in sight because that would just be to much. the police allowed these supporters to yell, 'gas the jews.'

and there were thousands of them. in fact the police arrested, the only arrest, a jewish man who was there with his flag to pay his respect to the dead.

while these people have a right to march and support their side, what they were doing was celebrating a death cult, with a police escort, while a single man with an israel flag was arrested for showing his solidarity with israel's dead. in subsequent marches jews were told to stay away, remove all emblems of identification as jews as this is to much of a provocation. this don't effect me at all but it is disgusting and the way everyone is complicit in their silence is equally disgusting. 

sure you can hate us, i know you do. i feel it everyday and have done since i was a child at skool, i've seen it from friends, ex girlfriends and an ex wife, people i meet through my life, intelligent lovely people suddenly show their pathology without understanding i may be of jewish decent. they just spill the beans, it pours out eventually. it don't scare or intimidate me, i'm very used to it. most jews, even the ones that don't support israel know deep down they will be someones target down the line, they just are far to frightened to admit it thus they mostly are the left wing appeasers. they are the optimists who stayed in germany at the rise of the nazis thinking, it will get better while pessimists left. 

i don't blame them, i used to think like them until i witnessed what occurred in europe with salmon rushdie and the many incidents where terrorists killed jews by hijacking aircraft or massacring an isreali olympic team here or there while the rest of the world was indifferent. 

anyone recall the arab oil embargo.

salmon rusdie!

you all know the story but what you may not know is what occurred in its wake. 

a committee called the islamic council was formed, it was an advisory body that would screen / filter everything published and promoted in the uk and europe that pertained to islam or muslims. it would approve or disapprove every publication from newspaper article to novel to tv series. and the threat of violence was always there, so weak governments capitulated. thus for decades the narrative was one sided. you never heard about what was really going down in isreal. many reporters were on the payroll, fabricating news and media because lets face it england and europe have always had an issue with jews and its establishment have always embraced the pan arab world. go even deeper and the british establishment was sympathetic towards hitler and would have appeased him if not for the working class english of which i am proudly one.

ironically all this does is give isreal a reason to exist.

people often say to me, why don't isreal offer land back. 

they did, they gave gaza back, ariel sharon (oft decribed by his haters as a war pig) used the army to drag their own people from their homes, they didn't have to do this but isreal wanted peace. it gave back land for peace and it never got it. in fact the land they gave back was fertile, had infrastructure and abundance. i saw the greenhouses stretching across the horizon. the first thing it's new occupants did was destroy everything and start firing missiles.  it's never been about isreal, it is always about jews. it's always been about jews and i'm sick of hearing people wank on about how anti zionism is not anti jew, of course it is you nutters. it's a brand new terminology, but it's most undeniably anti jew.

recently many jews have joined their left wing colleagues in support of the destruction of isreal, and it reminds me of the catholic church during the inquisition, you either convert of die. you either agree with us and join in the vilification of israel or you are a target. 

these useless idiots have no concept of socialist marxist and fascist history, for once isreal is done away with, they will be next. it's interesting to see through the lenses of history how the 'jews' are the canary in the coal mine when it comes to the decline of civilizations, they are the first to be persecuted, but after them it's usually their persecutors next in line. the lgbqt people will be next, then the christians, then the hindu, this has always been the goal of the islamic world. people may assume the koran is the single motivating force within islam, but they only have half the picture. the other half is the prophet mohammed whom is seen as the ideal man by his followers. if you really want to know what's going on, read about the life of mohammed. understand where it all comes from then you can understand where it is going.

i do stand with isreal because now is the time to take a side, and i choose life. that does not mean i feel nothing for the people of gaza, i do. they are victims of their own government and the lies that brainwashes them into killing jews. watch how the united nations funded schools in gaza and the west bank indoctrinate children to become martyrs for the cause, watch the tv shows that are designed like sesame street but promote the killing of jews. research 'pay for slay,' that's where your tax $ goes. the killing of jews, the eradication of israel. 

although i have little belief in judaism as a religion, there are parts i embrace just like all philosophies.

my issue is, i love isreal, what it became, how it evolved and what it stands for now. so i guess that puts me in the firing line and in the minority, but that's where i have always been, always.

so as much as it saddens me it re-enforces what i know. and also what jews now are beginning to see as reality.

i'm not safe anywhere except israel. that is not an exaggeration,  that is fact.

the more you lie about the truth the further away i move from you, and the idiots who fall for that occupation, apartheid nonsense only prove their overwhelming ignorance.  

for the last 30 years the un has waged a war upon isreal, as have it's aid agencies including amnesty which does the same with many countries especially in south america.  it used to be the extreme right but now it's the left and all those who have been influenced by academia, media and the reliance upon the majority, the majority of islamic immigration, voting blocks, civil obedience etc. 

the fear authorities have for the virus of islamism is outstanding, so much that it willing sacrifices it's minority jewish population for appeasement. that's the trade off, which is why i must choose a side on which to stand up with.

the attack upon the victims of october 7th who were visiting melbourne weeks after and the way hamas sympathisers got away with humiliating the families whom lost loved ones was disgraceful and embarrassing. along with 'gas the jews' outside the opera house, and the signature of australian journalists saying they need to view hamas on equal terms as isreal is just globally shameful. it's been noticed and it's already effecting tourism and trade internationally in australia as more and more decent people see australia for being a weak unprincipled country. 

in light of what is happening to the hostages, rapes, tortures and abuse of women and children and now even men the world still cannot condemn hamas. it is holocaust denial in real time. it's racism,  it's a fucking disgrace and you should be ashamed of what you do not do, what you do not speak out against and what you use as moral equivalency.  no one on either side deserves that sort of death. and those that demand proportionality will never get it from jews, because they do not rape, murder, burn, then send the video to victims families and celebrate the deaths of innocents. 

for many years the jews had no home, no army and no way to defend themselves and now they do. half the planet hate that.

i said a few years ago, there is a spiritual battle manifesting in this plane of existence, be prepared, choose a side because you cannot just observe without effecting the result. and here we are, harvard and ivy league professors, administrators all think it's okay to call for genocide of jews and their defence is abysmal, in fact i am embarrassed for them. did you see them before congress?

every weekend there are thousands of protesters demanding a ceasefire, knowing fully well a ceasefire gives hamas respite, gives them a chance to attack isreal again as they have promised. this is the logic of morons. the people inside gaza are just as much victims as isreal, they just don't know this yet because of the mass brainwashing they get as kids and the fear hamas instill in the gazan population. what amazes me, yet is another brutal fact is how europe and america support hamas. 

while i don't want to i can honestly say europes treatment of jews and isreal only proves it still is a nazi regime, although it is good to see geert win the dutch elections, and just like islam embraced hitler, the legacy of the holocaust is paid and funded by europe who loathe isreal's success, sovereignty and survival, it was never in their plan when they gave jews a state. from day one,  europe really though the arab nations would destroy isreal and they can wipe their hands of the jewish problem. the jews and isreal have always been the canary. the litmus test, the gauge by which people will be judged. that's why it has a destiny. that's what holds the country, the people together. and that in reflection is true about the jews, they do collectively, more than ever feel like they have a destiny.

in isreal the left wing were murdered by the people they supported, the people they helped and advocated for. not just murdered, let's be honest, they were butchered and university professors and students support the people who put babies in ovens in front of their parents, who rape dead women and men, who mutilate and torture children and take them hostage.

yeah that's the difference between me and you. 

i won't be celebrating the death of my enemy. 

in wars like this i am drawn to the gita, the incredible wisdom krishna imparts upon arjuna as arjuna doubts the righteousness of his battle with his uncle the night before the war. 

krisha says, 'they are already dead.'

it took me a long time to work out what that meant. now i know, but it gives me no pleasure. 

to be honest all i think about lately is how i wish i could be in tel aviv, on a rooftop with a bunch of weird misfits smoking weed, watching iron dome as we chat about philosophy or politics, or watch a band in mikes bar. anyone who has never been to tel aviv is missing out. the most progressive city i have ever seen, the wildest and most intelligent, a mix between berlin and tokyo but with a middle eastern twinge. a seething mass of multiculturalism, harmony and beauty all disguised as chaos. jerusalem is similar but jerusalem has a history, a serious past where ancient architecture meets the modern where an old ruin has been transformed into something projecting past and future in co existence. it's also filled with ugly trinkets and wares, the market sellers have not changed since the time of jesus and that's one thing even i don't like, they never learnt. however that's a small part of a big wide city, a city that is multi dimensional, it goes in all directions like a chaos sphere.

but my heart is somewhere in the golan, with my cousin, the tantric goddess. we smoke weed, take mescal, read the tarot cards of the local arabs, we drink black coffee and drive into the most amazing landscape i have ever seen along a perfect road that parallels the lake upon which jesus walked. 

i know the gaza strip, i been there, it's not an open air jail. it's far from a concentration camp. it certainty is nowhere as wonderful as it should be thanks to corrupt govts, but it's got beautiful beaches, hotels and resorts. it is densely populated for sure but part of the islamic fascist doctrine is to overwhelm with numbers, it's been very successful for them.  

yeah, i will stand up and be proud of isreal with all it's faults for being one of the most interesting countries on earth.

on the same day as the attack, at the same moment the peace festival was assaulted by hang gliding maniacs i was rushed to hospital for a month. 

for the last few years i looked in to sound frequency therapy, which is very effective and now available in small reasonably priced units from a company called 'spooky.' the units basically operate with a computer and a set of known frequencies to match a list of issues, ranging from broken bones and covid, to parasites.  all you need is a  frequency and to allow the field generator to act. the company supply every frequency you need, and the community of users often push the boundaries into uncharted waters. however now there's a new therapy which is photo-bio-modulation, where light is used. i'm looking into this as it ties in with the light eater people who subsist upon light alone. now this is an extreme practice but i know how they do it, and why it works. the issue is being committed enough to stop eating food the way we have been conditioned to, although light people do eat occasionally, they just eat very close to the source and always a small amount.

as far as healing goes we already know various frequencies of light, infra red for example is very good for cell repair, cardio vascular repair, enhancing the immune system and inflammation in short bursts. it's currently being looked at to cure cancer. 

same goes with ultra violet, therefore one can extrapolate that other light frequencies assist with other conditions. 

that's why sunlight is essential, i'm doubtful weather the supplement of vitamin d has the same kind of quality as sunlight. health is very much dependant on environment. get some sun, early morning or late evening is the best for longer exposure.

it's night time, big yellow moon hurling across the highway as i drive straight into it.

homewards bound, listening to some church, at the moment in playing 'fall in love with me,' from 'narcosis and more' which happens to be a solo album from steve. 

like all the great songwriters it's a novel within a song. 

everyones been there i think, the main character is not likeable but very relatable. i wonder if he is singing about himself or someone else, that's the thing about him, he's very honest. it's quite remarkable really. anyways the song is on loop, actually i forgot how amazing the whole album is: 

it's perfect for driving along the highway at midnight as you head towards the moon.

i may even stop and pick up a hitchhiker just so i can play them this music.  

it's funny, a friend of mine from years ago cancelled me. he always argued with me as i was not on his team, a guardian reading bbbc loving socialist. therefore i question all the agendas they push, including the covid vax. he now has some sort of blood disorder and decided to post some very nasty stuff about me and my family because he is clinging to his beliefs and his need to be right. 

a sad figure, and a sad ending to what could have been an interesting friendship but i guess when you are narrow minded and filled with hate and fear and loathing, this is how you respond. 

so here is my own response:
simon- my son thinks for himself, i gave him that freedom. freedom from religion, politics and media. what i did give him was humility, compassion and idea of a spiritual relationship with the universe. he's not half jewish anymore than i am fully jewish or half a follower of zoroastrism. i am me and he is what he is. only people like you seem to need to give us these labels. i am sorry about your illness, i did warn you and sent you evidence but you chose to cling to what you believe. 

i know you were upset as i couldn't take up your very kind offer and spend an evening with you but i was there to bury my father and look after my mum. i literally didn't have time, i didn't even see my best friends in brighton. occasionally i went out with my brothers friends who took me for dinner, and occasionally i went out with my son. but the period was pretty much me helping my mum. so either forgive me and stop your dumb attacks upon my family and go away gracefully or have the balls to speak with me directly. 

maybe i can even help you.

about one year ago i concluded that the nazi's actually run the world now. i based this upon my intuition as well as my critical analysis of current affairs. it was reading 'the empire on which the black sun never set' that confirmed my suspicions. the book details the bits most history books omit. looking at the birth of eugenics in the uk and the inevitable support the nazi's had from the british establishment as well as the american. even churchill was pro nazi up until he understood the english people were dead against it and decided to seize the popular moment of mostly working class people.

after the war most of the nazi's were redistributed amongst the allies, often into exulted govt. bodies like nasa, nato and the who. the sympathisers were also within government and the upper classes. and now their children are.

everything happening in the world of global politics today reflects this truth, the rise of socialism, cultural marxism, the climate core, the vilification of russia, the need to control media and the narrative, the projection (calling their enemies nazis) the demonisation of israel, the seizing of assets against dissenters, the use of pharmaceuticals upon the citizens against their will and the union of corporations, technology and governments. 

and yesterday the canadian govt under the idiot trudeau (who always calls his opponents fascists) gave a standing ovation to a nazi.

the west is supporting a war against russia, a nation that stopped the nazis with no small sacrifice in russian lives and we are told we must support ukraine. our tax in it's billions is transferred to a nazi regime within ukraine, one that was placed there by vicoria nuland after she and the cia overthrew the elected government and placed zelenski there.

and here we are. once could say the second world war never really ended.

boxing this morning i pull some sort of nerve in my shoulder, ouch! it hurts.and all day i feel it a sharp knife like stab in one specific point between my neck and shoulder blade. if i lift my head up it sends a shock wave down my back. i hunt around at work for some painkillers but to no avail, at home i have some natural stuff i will take but that means the ordeal of some weird signals shooting through my upper body. this old skin suit requires some relief. 

later while flipping through you tube videos i notice a selection of new church stuff from a new album. it's amazing and wow, it sounds great. i'm hooked in and fortunately this is a great distraction from my pain.

in the middle of this provocative book with it's compelling evidence claiming there is somethings NASA is hiding from us.

basically they have identified various structures upon the moons surface, some date back thousands of years and others are recent. i'm no expert but yeah, the images do look like they validate the claim. there are some other fascinating points and observations made my various astronauts including a story about neil armstrong's family being threatened not to reveal the truth of what he saw on his moon walk. 

they even talk about the infamous flag wave on the moon walk film.

this claim is far more believable than the conspiracy theory of fake moon landings. 

before they left they shot a fake piece of film in case they needed to insert it during the live broadcast. unfortunately the film makers didn't realise there is no atmosphere upon the moon, therefore the flag cannot wave.

and then there's a moment where neil's transmission goes dead for a few seconds, and that film is inserted. 

what was going on during that break in live transmission was neil had just seen a few ufo's on the moon plus structures that were not natural.

i have no idea if this is fact or fiction but the book makes a strong case.

and strangely uri geller mentioned that he had seen the bodies of aliens when he met wernher von braun who headed nasa at one point. werner had shown him himself and although it would have been a strange meeting, a nazi and a jewish spoon bender the whole story is re-enforced by wernhers final words as he was dying, 'aliens will be the last card.'

so what are they getting at. at the moment theres a huge resurgence in ufo and alien stories in the media. given most people acknowledge the fact the global govt. is happy to poison a third of the global population with forced experimental genetic medication, stupid proxy unjust wars, insane laws and economics that directly hurt and destroy life, the threat of the weather it stands to reason the enemy is getting bigger and bigger.  maybe the next threat will be aliens. whereas i see the enemy is actually human.

despite being a nazi bastard, this is what his daughter said he had shared with her before he died.

The enemy at first he said, the enemy against whom we're going to build a space based weapons system . . considered the enemy ... then terrorists would be identified and that was soon to follow. . . then we were going to identify third world crazies, we now call them nations of concern. . against asteroids we're going to build space based weapons. First the Russians are going to be the next enemy then asteroids. And the funniest one of all, was against what he called aliens, extraterrestrials, that would be the final card. And over, and over, and over during the four years that I knew him and was giving his speeches for him, he would bring up that last card. 'And remember Carol, the last card is the alien card. We're going to have to build space based weapons against aliens,' and all of it, he said, is a lie.

it's all narrative now, everything. aliens, war, covid, trump vs the uni-party. is russell brand abusive, is jo biden on the chinese payroll, is captain mission an alien. earlier in my blog i wrote reality is broken. 
i think it started a while back but when trump started to call out the media that's when i took notice, and he was correct. 'fake media' was the clarion call like gabriel's horn, soon the dead will rise. 
yeah people, you have to admit nothing is true now, it's all lies, misinformation, smoke and mirrors. which is why left and right no longer applies. the best optic to use is on a scale of freedom. the liberated or the enslaved. and brother sister, we are all enslaved by incremental degree. it's a prison planet now. even the galactic federation know. 
be it debt, inflation or tax, new green deals, cancel culture, energy directed weapons, net zero, death by social media, the algorithm ghetto is here and it's coming for you me and anyone with a free mind.

me i just want to surf, write my books and smoke my weed. i don't even want to travel anymore. 

what's next.

well just like stingray.

anything could happen in the next five seconds. 

i love my job, working with clients and my boss is great but to be honest i am frustrated by the moronic idiots i work with. yesterday i was told not to use the word lazy as it was offensive. i responded by saying, 'don't ever tell me what words i can use and what words i can't because i find that offensive.'

i'm so over the lazy attitude of co workers, their inability to pull themselves away from mobile phones and netflix. most of the time i'm diplomatic but at the moment anything could happen.

 i've been thinking about my father, how he loved the cowboys whereas i was always into the indians. we both loved clint eastwood but for different reasons, he because of his cowboy movies and i must admit i liked them to, he always showed great respect to the indians. 

i was thinking about dad today, how often when i become animated about the political world and feel a need to chat with someone who was just as shocked and amazed by all the things that were going on,  he was number one on my list. instead of analysing it we would just confess our disbelief and bafflement. for example, the persecution of trump. we could not understand how so many people hated him without knowing why, and i often equated it to the two minites of hate (emmanuel goldstein) in 1984. it was just bizarre how they went after him, never gave him a chance at all. fabricated news, lied, misrepresented him in most media, downplayed his achievements and  made the clintons, obama and the rest of them out to be the good guys. very few people understood obama's agenda, fewer understood how dangerous and corrupt the clintons were. it was never about left wing right wing for dad and me, it was about a sense of righteousness. but i guess you have to go beyond the bbc and the guardian to know that.

that's something i loved about my dad. he had principles. they were kinda somewhat misdirected in my humble opinion but he had them and he stuck to them. i have my own, a code i guess. it's simple and always true and i trust it. 

spending time alone this weekend, listening to a lot of bob dylan. i gotta say dylan is a sort of singularity, no one sings or writes like him. all his songs have such depth, they are funny, tragic and poetic and dylan uses language just like a writer. i also really like his delivery, very few singers understand this aspect of singing. sinatra was the master but dylan has it too. recently he reinterpreted his old songs for a cd called shadow kingdom, a live rendition of very early songs. 'forever young' is a highlight but they all sound amazing. his voice is so rich, with experience and knowledge and wisdom. it really is something. his harp playing is pretty impressive as well.

the cdc has finally admitted that the non vaccinated are less at risk from covid variants than those that are.

what does that say about the science you trusted and the way you humiliated and degraded those people that questioned the forced mandates and that stupid 'safe and effective' mantra from your fave politicians, pop stars and hollywood celebs.

i was called everything from a right wing fascist to a racist to a selfish k$5t for having my own opinion about my own health. i investigated the jabs by listening to the people who were banned from speaking, de platformed or were demonised.

the death rate since the jabs has increased by 30%, people are dropping dead who are healthy. and now a few more people are questioning the jab which is good to see.

this jab was never about health. i knew that else they would have not banned the safe and cheap cure. they never would have locked us down and sealed us in out homes. what they would have done if they were looking after our interests was provide us with access to cheap healthy vegetables and fruit, allowed us to breathe fresh air, stopped us covering our faces in pointless masks that can't stop a virus and actually stop our intake of oxygen if worn for long periods.

nope this was never about health, it was about control. it was about culling the population and most of the public complied and enforced theses bastards agendas.
me, i say fuck you. no one will ever tell me what to think, what to believe, who to trust and what trend to follow. left wing right wing, you idiots are all nuts if you think that's a 'real thing.'

the rulers of the world are the military (which helped design the vaccines) , pharma industrial complex, the wef, the un and the who.
the next move is war.
anyone who knows anything about history knows this is the cul de sac our western governments have led us to.  

the new church album is imminent. here's a little track which is totally incredible and out of the blue. listen!

the death card equates the finality of something and the beginning of another. it is not necessary a negative card, in fact there are no negative cards only negative perspectives. a. the principle the humanization principle of death is an endless series of transformations into a new life, the dance of death: . b. skeletons and scythes during the middle ages death was identified with saturn and skeletons because it was only regarded as a destroyer, and thus, is the archenemy of mankind. the soul is immortal, but it is connected to life as our body, and that is exactly the form that death destroys. life and death, before and even now, are not considered to be parallel but are seen as victims of each other. however, because the scythe is in the hands of the dead hanging on the threads of life itself, we realize that it is the cycle of death and rebirth. on another level, the scythe is a crescent moon, corresponding to hecate – a Greek god of death, miracles, and magic. c. hemet (crown of Osiris) saturn as a reaper reflects our fear of death. however, we should not equate it with actual death. the helmet on the head of the skeleton is the crown named atef of osiris, an egyptian god of the afterlife. he, the husband of isis, became a victim of his brother’s lie, seth. seth tore him into fourteen pieces (there are many sources that claim to have twenty-seven pieces). however, the god anubis collected all the pieces, and isis awakened her beloved husband to a new life. from this beginning, osiris became the master of the domain of death in the west and was the guardian of the water of life. may osiris someday give me the water fresh. we see the same thing in legal traditions. the preacher tells of the journey into the world below, where they face demons within them who literally tear their flesh from the bones. after symbolic death is always a rebirth, and following the cutting of flesh is a miraculous advance to enter a new body.

crisp morning, slow warm kick start as the heat begins to rise. basking in the sunshine at dawn as the world passes me by. my mind is still and clear, i have a lot to do today, but that's okay i must create a space for things to fall into. i have managed to get everything i want, nothing is out of reach anymore, mentally, physically and emotionally. spiritually i have ascended the requirements of need. the universe not only loves me, it holds me. the water is cold, something like shock but not quite, a slight mental aclimatisation. you would be surprised how many bodies are in the water, no wetsuits as winter comes to an end. no waves but it feels bright and clear, as every cell awakens to extra visionary spectrums. later warming my body in the sun i read 'marigold' well past the halfway point as things reach a climax. on return to mission control i have to juggle around a few finacial streams, buy a few suppiles, do some low maintence prep. i'm convinced that bill gates is an evil man now, there is nothing redeeming about him or his associates, every act he makes betrays his inhumanity. i hear he now wants to cut down trees and bury them, and along with his polluting the skies with mirrors and lazers i figure his ambitions are basically designed to kill as many people as possible, not to mention his deathly vaccines. however the war is spiritual and must be faught on a spiritual level as well in the dynamic realm. i gaze out towards my garden, the jungle encrouching inwards upon me, and i come to the conclusion it is time to hack back, as it inches closer towards the house. i have to cull the tiger grass and some of the branches above me, take some cuttings from the insane rubber plant and strip back the bannana trees. then there's the front garden, i contemplate some hardcore landscaping, replanting some of the huge frens and stripping back the foilage on the maple plant that spreads its way across everything.

ha! i arrive home late last night only to find my pond empty, there is still a leak and i have located it somewhere in the stream. fortuantly my hardy fish survived existing in a small pool of accumulated water left after the pump evacuated all water that it could manage. i turn off the pump and refil the pond again, call my pool man who will visit in the week. the day saw me heading into the city with some work people, i picked up an interesting book on NASA i'm looking forwards to reading. currently i am halfway through 'maringold' a sort of eco lovecraftian dectective story about a city based around toronto where corperate greed and post capitalism exploits all the residents one way or the other, the technology of the future becomes gothic, the charachters fated to an inexplicable encounter with the strange fungal intelligence that lays underneath their city, slowley rising and becoming known, commnicating and manifestting upon the surface as some kind of recognisable form. our two female investigators under the employee of the sinister govt dept and part private company start their investigation into the labyryth of sinkholes and subterranean infrastructure that lays beneath the city as the most powerful invididuals plot their neferious plans. the book takes the main theme and divides it against tennents inhabiting the marigold by siute number, each tennent being integral to the story although none exactly likable charachters as their tragectories converge. it's a good story, well written and paced and has some great observations about the decline of the west.

after a long abscense i reconnect with my pond man, who has arrived just in time to save my fish. a few months ago i noticed a loss of water and by a process of deduction concluded something was amiss in the stream. i had to turn the pump off to avoid loosing water which meant my fish would be in a still pond with very little flow except for rainfall. as it's been a very warm and sunny winter this what far from ideal yet unexpectedly the fish have survived much longer than i thought but have now reached a precarious stage. most of the area is now inaccessable by me, and overgrown. at the back of my mind i was thinking this may be it for the whole enterprise, i could just fill up the hole, plant some nice flowers and buy some beehives. that's when pond man shows up. we rework some electrical stuff from my bedroom to the outside area where we afix a new outdoor power source. then a general tidy up from all the massive ferns that have overgrown the front garden, hanging over the pond, their wild tendrils extending outwards and everywhere, blocking access over the small bridge. we actually have to pull out a number of them, really enormous one and then a reconstruction of the stream, and restarting the pump. all labourious, and all complex work but everything seems to fall into place and we manage to complete the task. happy fish. happy me. all i need is an outdoor setting where i can sit in the sun, weed and read. mission control has transformed itself totally inside and out, looking much more spacious and uncluttered in the main areas. there's still a lot of work to do but i hope to have everything finished by xmas. my next big job is cleaning windows, that should brighten it up a bit for all my indoor plant life. everything seems to be coming along reasonably well, there's a big dip in my fanances but i don't think it will last long, perhaps saturday will see everything rectify itself as i have incoming from an unexpected source. i don't want to do anything extravegent, move or buy property, in fact i just want to continue doing whatever i am doing which is training, working, reading. there is always at the back of my mind the horror of mandates.

finished reading the apparition phase, which held me captive for a few days and nights. the story revolves around a young man and his sister who i guess are very young old skool goths, showing an early interest in the occult and general spookyness. they play a trick upon a skoolmate and unleash as strange series of events that quickly propel the young man into investigations in an old house that may or may not host a ghost. is the ghost a manifestation of emotional energy, is it genuine? the story was great, set in the late 70's i related to a few iconic observations. it's well written, and takes a few twists but the conclusion is unusal and slightly disappointing. none the less there's a unsettling feeling as you turn that last page which is what a good ghost story should offer its reader.

my training is coming along well, loosing more fat as i do my excersises and this morning at dawn i was on the beach playing beach vollyball. it was somewhat choatic as most of the players had not played and i had never played since i lived in the usa 35 years ago. i always loved beach vollyball as it was casual, playful and i happened to be really good at it. now i am a bit rusty but after about 40 mins of shambolic playing we all began to find our way and the last 30 ministes had some amazing volleys. it was a glorious winters day, the sun glowing pinky red over the ocean and although the sand was cold the water was warm. lot's of laughter, lots of excersise, lots of joy. back home i needed to do laundry and gardening, there has been no time for anything except work the last few months but today i made the most of it. the lower parts of mission control are slowly taking shape. it's looking pretty good now. the kitchen needs work as does the upper part of the house but steady as she goes. i've finished reading jim carey's memories and misinformation, very good in parts although like jim carey dosn't know when to moderate itself. i must admit i loved some of it, the writing was exquisite and his story was excellently put together but the ending became tedious.