11:11:11 11:11am
er by guilt trip playing and all i wanna say is i love everyone right now, it's a good space to be in, the cosmos knows and understands this, it's a feedback loop and sometimes it throws weird shit at you, but that's just reflection of your own weirdness, only possibilities left are embracing it, working out your own stuff, understanding it and letting it go with the love you can give it, for this universe is a strange mysterious woman that you have to love unconditionally and embrace, she don't care about the details.
anyway what's to say, guilt trip says it for me, this is the soundtrack for my lives, all of them. it hits me like being drenched in sunlight for the very first time, and then bathed moonlight to cool off. it moves me to something i can't quite capture, there are no words on this album, there's no need for them, the sounds speak for themselves and they say more than any word. it's a beautiful elegant piece of music but it contains so much more than beauty.

eventually a friend rings me, i have lost a few over the latest episode in my life, i understand this but they can't even begin to understand me i guess which is sad but a fact, of course i am living in an illusion, that is not a delusion sister, the issue is i don't fear it the same way you do. to live in fear of people is to be a slave. i find it irritating and disappointing but there is no free will to choose, only the illusion of it, the fall of man is written in the old testament and we still are falling, we think intellect is the answer yet look where we are, filled with fear hate and control and power, nothing has changed just the illusion of it changes and by default our delusion that we are advanced. as i have said before the only way to live is to create art and find the true self, everything else is just a distraction, your spiritual frame work is a form of fascism if you think it's better than mine, mine don't need to play those games and it don't care if it is judged by yours. it is strong enough to withstand all of the nonsense it contains, in fact it readily confesses to being completely false, and encourages disbelief, such is it's indifference to criticism. baby it has a sense of humour and it's sexy enough to laugh at itself. 


so hail the 11:11:11 may all your syncronicities set you free.
my friend is a wise man, we make an unlikely alliance but we are similar in our understanding of everything. we have reached the same conclusions, we are free, as far as one can be from the human condition, yet we are sad to watch events transpire and mankind repeat it's endless cycle of mistakes and hubris. myself included. 11:11:11 only has significance to those that know, yet the secret of knowing is not attaching significance to it, for like all things in that realm it is a paradoxical equation, not for the brain or the mind. my intuition is finely honed, it knows stuff and i trust it, that's good enough for me.